Jazmaine's

Webcam with Az.

2010-03-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

Yeah I am webcamming with Azhari hubby now. So bored :/ People please relink and tag me kay? :)

Sleep early if you're seeing this in the middle of the night! Haha.

I want to choing all my homework!!!! March holidays will be over very soon. :(

leaving singapore

2010-02-25T11:27:00.001+08:00

I'm leaving singapore soon in the afternoon I guess.
Thought of buying a card to call/sms back.
But now I see no point.
I hope I could go there shopping which 99% I will.
Hope I will enjoy my stay there. ^^v

Had ss common test today in school, totally no mood for it.
So anyhow do, just this time kay? :P
For those who're jealous I can leave school early,
too bad!

I havent had any breakfast since i woke up.
I totally no appetite so i guess i am not eating..

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going malaysia

2010-02-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

I am going to malaysia this coming thursday, which is to say, tomorrow.
I will leave school at 8.30am, straight after my exams.
As I have flight which need go airport.
I have already done packing my stuff.
I will only be back on the sunday night.
Totally hope will have computer there.

Today is common test totally suck. Shall not elaborate.
School was as usual and went home @ 1pm.
Did nothing but play computer.
But going to study SS later.

finally get my laptop back, yay. ^^v

2010-02-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hi. I don't want to go Malaysia this coming Thursday.

School life

2010-01-19T18:29:00.014+08:00

Hey R.E.A.D.E.R.S!

It's been sooooooooooooo long since I posted something on this blog!
Been rather busy with my studies these days=(
But still I gotta hang on, as this year I'll be taking my O's.
But still I don't know what course should I get..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Today morning damn paiseh, but shall not say it here.
Almost everyday have extra lesson unless CCA day lor=(
Today lesson is rather boring..
And I dozed off in class!!!!
(nidda get more sleep tonight..)
shall talk more about my school life.
Today right!
I forget bring Chemistry TYS leh!!
So worry you know!
Because teacher says
"If one person never bring TYS, the whole class shall not go through the answer".
After my last lesson ended, I had 1/2 hour break.
I run all the way home and back to school!
I nearly died of tiredness, seriously.
Then got some people never do, some never bring.
I was like "WTF!?!!? I ran all the way back and in the end cannot go through?!!?"
=(
Then had F&N lesson, then went home at 4.30pm.

Okay lah, I'll try to update as often as I could lah!=)

Teenagers.

2009-12-25T22:29:00.001+08:00

I wish i could faster grow up.
I'm using hand phone to blog. I'm a fifteen year old teenager already. And sixteen is coming. Why other friends of mine could go home late. Why i cant. Even just simply downstair. And why must i always get the same treatment as my sister. She so young can do all the things i do now while i dont get it in her age. My mum is so unfair. I'd to admit. Just now i did cry in the bathroom while i was bathing because all my friends could go home and i have to reach home by 7 unless some occasions. But my friends just going downstair talk also cant. Then today baby went Malaysia make me cry even harder. I really want to faster grow up to 21. I very tired and why cant i be like other teenager.
I miss my baby and i need him right now with me.

Long time since I blogged

2009-12-20T14:31:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile since I post. Ahahahas.

Sorry I cant be updating often as M Y L A P T O P C R A S H E D.

I can blog now 'cause my sister went out so I used her computer. Hees :P

And and and! Sorry that if you text me and I didnt reply you.

My handphone is under repair as it spoiled.

All because of SOMEBODY!
(do YOU feel guilty? :P)

HAHAHAHAS.

But by now I could collect it already.

But I didnt went vivo luh, I don't want go there just to collect phone.
(Waste transport fees, waste time, waste energy, waste my sleeping time etcs..)

Excuses luh but! I will collect it asap kay!

Christmas is coming and I had yet to buy any presents yet.

Nidda exchange with friends, any idea what to buy for christmas presents?

Tag me if you have ideas! Ahahahas.

Now Im left with nothing

2009-11-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

CURRENTLY STILL SCHOOLING SO DON'T WANNA TALK MUCH HERE IF YOU KNOW ME WELL YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I AM UP TO NO POINT UPDATING IT HERE HAHAHAHA.

Astro Boy at Cineleisure.

2009-11-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

Today had school in the morning.
After school went to kenny's cafe with amalina to have her lunch.
I skipped my recess and lunch.
Don't know why, abit no appetite luh.
Then wait for Ant, Carol and JL till 1230.
But their lesson drag luh.
So after that we went home, and it was raining.
I went bathing, changed, and make up.
Then went down with my sis to meet baby at my house downstair.
Then went to meet Ant at my house opposite bus-stop.
Then bused to JP and meet JL.
Then trained to orchard and meet Manfred and Crystal.
They were holding hands luh, like so shocking.
We were all very shocked that they two stead.
Then Ant, sis and JL went their own way.
Then baby, Manfred and Crystal went to cineleisure.
Then watched Astro Boy.
Sort of tearjerker, but still fine, as the ending is a happy one.
Then walked around at the cineleisure mall.
Took neos, update tomorrow.
And then we found out Crystal and Manfred fooled us!
They didn't stead at all luh.
Sort of pissed off and disappointed.
Went to Ion to buy Manfred Fred perry shirt.
Which fucking cost $189, and he keep show off to us!
Rawrrrrrrrrr, Then trained back.
Manfred alight at CG and We 3 at BL.
Then I went to buy dinner and went home.
Reached home at 8pm.
Bathed, eat and that's roughly all.
Nightz! ^^

3010090123

2009-10-30T20:53:00.002+08:00

Heyo, Crystal came to my house in the morning at 8plus, wtf I was sleeping lah, then she came to my room. Then Justin came too, then my mum came back and scolded me, say I bring friends to room. Then all came out and chatted, saw my results, I passed 4 subs! Then of cuz happy lah, though still think I did very badly. Then kena scolded by parents cuz I keep use vulgar, :X Then manfred came and we went to take bus to work. Then work today is damn not happy lor, got people complained that I jump jump jump, and not well trained :( Though not straight n my face, but to my friend leh! Then work work work, tired tired and damn no mood. Then saw alot of stuffs also not happy, still MUST SMILE okay. Then bill also, I give to wrong table sia! So paiseh, but then the wrong table also want bill, I ask others help me go settle the bill which I give wrong, then wtf, they say later, I am fucking pissed off till I wanna cry lah. But then at least there are still funny stuffs to laugh about, LOL. Then eat lunch, but I never, totally no appetite, so never eat. Then clear things, then the rest go liao, left manfred, jenella, crystal, justin and me. Played daidee, paired up with justin, all the two games lost, then I solo, then I win, so happy! LOL. Then played cheat, then I also win again, LOL. I see them play play cuz need continue, then in the end debbie and jenella need go liao, so left we 4. Then I played jenella card, and I win again, LOL. Then left they 3 play. Then when play finish, played indian poker. Damn fun lor, biggest number can forfeit the smallest number. Then first one is justin kena, we make him go to mama shop say to auntie " Hi, I am justin." Lol! Then the next one is me I think, justin biggest number, and my forfeit is, go help him refill ice lemon tea, LOL. Then the next one is I kena again, then needa hold hands or smth, LOL. dk lah, but I know I owe first. then we all gang up liao, I and justin help, and manfred and crystal help. Then in the end, I smallest again, KNS! Then justin help me 1 game, and I kena again, WTF, my luck not for this lah. Then Justin wanna send me home liao then we run away cuz don't want do the dare and later he got nightshift, I dont have. LOL. Then realise deb and leonard is tgt one nia! I am shocked sia. But tomorrow I got lor, then home, bathed, ate, blah blah. Then tmr I am workin' nightshift lah. LOL. Nvm, still got people accompany me also. HAHA.

More and more;

2009-10-29T22:06:00.004+08:00

Yoyo, didn't went school tdy, since my cramp also not really recovered, yst kena sent home lor. went to polyclinic with sweetheart, sex partner, sis, and men/darling. Then go get mc as they were sick, then at 10plus go eat breakfast with them at boon lay market, then went eat pudding, then went back jp, then I and men/darling went to her hse and redo make up and spray purple highlight, then went out to find justin and manfred @ work place @ 3plus. Then went see movie @ vivo , see my sister's keeper. Then we purposely put men/darling with manfred together at another end, then sabo they two. Lols. Then each pair buy 1 large coke. Actually not tear-jerking lor, or maybe we were busying talking and laughing? LOL. but some parts of the show is funny. Then watch finish already 7pm. Then manfred go find his friends then left we 3 go eat dinner, trained and bus home, reached home at around 9pm. Didn't pay for anything except my dinner, LOLS! Bathed and changed. Tmr going work , so im not takin my result slips with my mum, most likely mum herself go :P Then justin, men/darling, manfred comin' my hse pei me go to work ^^ Yay!

updates

2009-10-25T19:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday woke up at 8am. Bath and changed. Out to bugis and queensway till around 5pm. Then went work, then work till 10plus pm, then Justin and Crystal send me to door step lor. Then chatted on phone till 2am then sleep. Today slept till 2am then chatted on phone then went out buy dinner. Roughly like this lor.

Out to City Hall.

2009-10-18T22:41:00.008+08:00

Today went out to City Hall with Hannan and Azhari husbands! Meet up with azhari at JP Ctrl Station first, Then took train to City Hall. Azhari bring me to City Hall. YAY! Then walk around. Went Stamford House slack awhile, then went to meet Hannan and Jaslin. Then went to Stamford House again, wait for like 1hr+, we stole 1 cigarette in a box, car alarmer and lighter. Lol. Not stole lor, is a guy left there, then my friend go take. :P Then Jaslin went to the Hair Shop for Hair Modelling. Then we 3 went to eat PASTAMANIA @ Funan. Then very funny. Azhari go order first, then Hannan. I last. We all wait each other come back then go. Then when I last go order, the guy at the cashier there put $10+ at the bill there, but after that he charge me lesser. He whisper to me say he charge me lesser:P He charge me VIP price eh! Lol. Then I go back tell they two. They were so jealous, right? Lol. I added alot cheese at my garlic bread and pasta! Lols. Then after that, went esplanade. Sit at the grass patch there and chatted! Fun. Then at 5plus, went back to Stamford house. Then danced. Then take one group photo and went off @ around 6plus. Then went to take MRT with Azhari. Then went home. Tomorrow starting work already. Damn nervous lah. Photo also uploaded @ FaceBook.

Short update.

2009-10-16T21:15:00.007+08:00

Erm actually I only remembered what happened fom wednesday to friday. so shall only blog on that.

Wednesday 14oct09.
Oral totally cmi. Saw GK and beat him 17times! Then saw ling and went to canteen. Then saw ping and tl. Then ping and ling go liao, sy came. and then Hendra. Then think of going kbox on Thurs to celebrate gk and tl birthday. Then went find ant and my sis and jiali. Went to gekpoh eat big breakfast and went back schl. Find carol and go guitar room help out. Then went for job interview lor, then passed! Yay! will be working starting from next week (: It's at penang place @ international business park @ je. Hehe, due to night time, some people will accompany me back :D happy birthday gk!

Thursday 15oct09.
Woke up at 9plus lah. Make up and then changed. Rush out to meet gk, tl, kp, nb, sy. Hendra cannot come out. Awww. Then before the rest came, I and kp went shopping and I bought an anket! And went to meet the rest. Then walk to Jurong safra. As we reach earlier, we went there slack around first. Then went in @ 11. As I called to book room yesterday, I use my name lor. Then went in and started choose song already, and omg, we choose 11pages already! Then each page like can put 10songs, imagine that! Then sing and scream all the way lor, the gk, keep take the mic, then we must shout shout shout. Haha, then ate cake, then the lunch. @ 2, we are suppose to go already but we extend 1hr! so continue singing and crapping. Then the bill turn out $137++ . We were fucking shocked but of cuz enough to pay lah, Then went to jp while kp went to find xuli. Then shopped around with the rest. Then I keep bully gk :P, but he also pull my hair lah! Grrr! Then gk went off to find fz @ blsc lan, and we continue shop. Then sy hungry so went kopitiam feast to let her eat. Then I fell asleep, so tired you know, that I fell asleep in a hawker centre leh! omg lah, then I was woke up by an auntie who came to clear the plates. Then pei nb buy pink scarf, and black hat. Then went find sy present and went home. Then at night was talking on phone calming down someone and talk about the fun times. Photos @ FaceBook.

Friday16oct09.(today)
Woke up @ 12plus as I was too tired, Woke up by my sis as we 1pm need to settle things. Rush down to find the rest. Saw andy. The guys went join him for bball. Then when st and jl came, all talk and settle with someone, and some guys keep want chap in, like so wth, I think is ex-westwoodians, and ask me last time I like the Jordan, knn, when did I ever like him before? and said why I become like this, Eh, I very guai de okay. LOL. after that someone said sorry and went off, we went lan, kena chased out and scolded. -'- Then after that, went to car park @ gekpoh to slack, then take photos. Then went to buy dinner and went home. Packed up and clear my study room, as tmr need to paint my study room. Sian, my house now under going renovation. When do the floor, I still can't come home so early everyday. Sian. Then went bath and play com, then later when tj come, me and my 2 sisters play mahjong till midnight or later, haha. (: Have the urge to delete this blog lor. Today's 16oct, and everything came back, really came back.

Lantern Fest.

2009-10-04T18:28:00.004+08:00

Heyo. changed blogskin and song.
It had been a long time since I changed my blogskin.
Hmmm. Yesterday went out at 10am and reached home at 10pluspm.
Which means I go out about 12hours plus. Lol.
Went out in the morning to study with di, ant, lrt, kor and wugui.
Ate big breakfast. I choing there lor, and bought it at 1056am.
Poor lrt, have to eat LUNCH. Lol.
Then di and yc joined us at 1plus.
Carol came awhile and went tuition.
Then chatted about chalet.
and then at around 2plus girls went slack at central park while guys went arcade.
Then at around 4 the boys came and ant went to her jap class.
Then played 007, zhong ji mi ma, true or dare and alot more.
Had a lot of fun.
Reached home at 6plus, then went to changed and prepared.
Then I cant cancel my tuition at 7pm.
I was fucking sad, I want to play candles with friends:(
Then even my mummy ask me to cancel lah.
Zzz. Then went to meet dear and went tuition.
Totally no mood for tuition and cher realised I was sick.
Then at first cher want let me off at 830 to join friends, but forget it, they going off at 9plus.
Then went to eat dinner with dear, realised they haven't play finish.
Jiali and ant came find me, so happy.
Then ate till 10plus and went home.
While I realised friends haven't go home.
Wanted to find them but, they coming home at 11plus.
So I lazy, and used comp. :)
Then was smsing friend, damn super high lor.
Crazy one sia him. Zzzz.
Sian, now I even have cough liao, exams is just two days away.
Fever, flu still a little have not recovered.
K lah, bye~

2009-10-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

I am having fever. Not sure gng schl anot, but tmrs award day leh. :( went to jp with ling, jialin, tzehearn. Ate pepper lunch. Walked ard. Went home ard 5plus. totally no strength n terrible. Bye.

SICK

2009-09-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

I am officially down with flu, sore throat and keep sneezing.
I think I going to be sick, and get fever.
Cuz everytime I like this, then will like that.
Lol, holding handkerchief 24/7 now, cool eh?
Got 2nd prize for the chinese essay competition in overall sec 3 express.
Got trophy! :D
Shall not talk about school, esp. EL cuz it pissed me off.
I WANT MY CLASS-PHOTOS!!!!
SS extra lesson cancelled. (:
After school went meet up with friends.
Discussed clique tee and chalet.
And I gotta put BLUEBLACK as my name, lol.
Cuz I have to. T.T
Then went 7eleven eat and went home.
As I feel super damn terrible. :(
My friend right, keep shoot me.
Say SG CL Compo no hope liao, cuz I also can get 2nd.
WTH!!!
Lol, tomorrow's a late day and first day of oct already.
which means the exams are coming!!!
AHHHHHHH! shucks.
FA's on fri(:

UNWELL

2009-09-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

Today didn't managed to study with dear and ant, rt, rs and my sis. yesterday night slept at 2plus. I wasn't feeling well when I woke up at around 11plus. Went out to meet keryn at usual place at 12plus and ate lunch. Went to tuition till 3. I totally feel super unwell, and my feng shi also acts up. I had a serious headache. Then realised my period came too. so it's pain + unwell. I am going to fall sick soon, it's just a matter of time. Stayed at home and rest after that, and research recipes for my coursework. Managed to find one, not sure wanna do that anot. Deadline is on the end of this month and I have not started yet. It's past midnight and i still not tired at all. Sorry gk, i tried to sleep but still cant. Love camwhoring using my camera cuz the picture turns out super cool, and so much better quality. It's like a camera, in fact my phone are designed mainly for it's camera function I think. :D Hmmm, please get me into sleep! :(

EOY'09 paper one

2009-09-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

today we had EOY EL and CL Paper 1. It was much more harder than what i expected. Accompany ant home and went out to jp. Ate, and shopped. Went back to schl at 3plus to wait ping lesson end. Thn saw sy. Homed. I gonna work during the holis. :) i want to get myself damn loads of things. Tmr hv CL oral and i am the first. Nervous. Have celebration tmr in sch. Tmr've geog and i dont want to get back my test.

I did it all over again.

2009-09-22T20:31:00.005+08:00

My sunburn is killing me when i bath.
my whole body and face got sunburn badly.
Ran rev-up in the morning.
Slack alot lah:P
Ran with weilu, joey ad syaza.
Saw ling and jia and ran with them.
went out to study and eat lunch.
fell asleep at library and kena scolded.
so didn't really studied.
but i slept at 1plus yesterday, really tired.
then went to gekpoh buy bubbletea and went home.
played maple.
now going to do research for coursework.
End of year coming:)
My house's now painting and when holiday, renovate.
I guess I have to stay out late or something like stay somewhere else.

I think I have changed.
I wanted things to be in my way.
Or my anger will overwhelmed me and hurt other people.
I feel so terrible.
I don't want to be like this.
But I am just like this now.
Think many friends are angry with me I suppose.
Or maybe I lost friends too.
Just sorry.

Swimming at je.

2009-09-21T18:50:00.005+08:00

I think I had friends who care about me.
Or at least I hope there will be.
I made a very wrong decision, and all along I was right.

Went swimming @ JE tdy with lrt, rs, alex, ant and yc.
Morning have some conflict with my sis.
As usual, my anger overwhelmed me.
Even it's trival matters, it pissed me off.

Was smsing some friends alot during waiting for bus and on bus etcs.
Waves is fun, as the boys hold us and we girls sit on float.
I got molested at lazy river, and it's really molested.
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Ate Vegetarian Fried Oyster for dinner at JE hawker.
I ate not even half I full already and feel like vomiting.

I don't feel like elaborating so much alr. Bye.

What's wrong?

2009-09-20T23:50:00.008+08:00

I feel so..Terrible.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
It must be a drastic change in me.
I feel easily irritated these days.
I am making my friends pissed off by me.
And I got pissed off umpteen times too.
Am I losing faith in everyone I know?
Am I losing trust in everyone?
I really don't know.
I became more and more stubborn now too.
I don't say sorries anymore.
Or should I say, I wait for the person to say.
When I know it's my fault.
I don't know, when I see something not I wanted to be like,
I get angry, and scold that person.
It's everything inside me bursting out.
Someone told me I must grow up.
Don't be like a child.
Sometimes we will have to be alone,
You know friends can't be there for you all the times.
I am just scared being alone.
I keep bottling up things now.
I don't share it out.
No matter how terrible I felt.
Because if I do, I will be scary.
Emotional and sensitive.
I am trying to change away all the bad habits I had last time.
And days by days went by,
Everything accumulate inside me.
I dont know is it going to burst out now.
But I am going to one day, I am sure.
I thought I will be better.
In class, I feel alone.
I try to be hyper, cheerful like the past.
Yes, I did it.
But after that I turned slient.
And don't feel like talking.
Just feel like sleeping.
Seeing my friends happy, I cant be sad for them to see.
Seeing my friends one by one getting attached.
I am happy, and have fun teasing them.
I make alot of people angry with me these days.
And all I know now was to cry, cry and cry.
And after so much things, I feel that friends are very impt.
But out of so many, who can heart talk with me?
None.
I am trying to let go of my past too.
I am not going to let it drag me down.
But days and days go by.
Feelings fades, and get stronger.
And I keep do whatever I want.
Thinking everyone must be in my way.
I am going crazy. Really crazy.

Grow up.

2009-09-16T19:00:00.001+08:00

Posting with my phone now. Today was not so pleasant. Was caught by f. Then flower pants and side got snipped off. Got screamed at. I screamed and scold back. I feel bad. I screamed alot at her and alot of ppl saw. Cried 2hr like that and i was absent for lesson frm 9plus till 12plus. After that i have headache and eye felt super pain. Ok aint complainin cuz it was my fault afterall. Anws i choing ard 3 days to 4days and maple second job alr. First time. Today i found sumone who i can heart talk to more alr:) i need to grow up and sometimes i have to learn to be alone:) i can do it. Thanks. Tomorrow is a late day! Finally can sleep a little more. K la. Thats all for today. Sorry for not posting so long. Happy birthday annisaa! Thanks gk for your meaningful stuffs you taught me.

Boring day

2009-09-08T21:07:00.009+08:00

Went maths extra lesson today. Was late, reached at 10.05am like that. But in the end cher haven't reach yet also. Lol. Then start lesson at 10.15am like that. Then end at 11.45am. Then went to find carol and jiali. Then went to find di. Then went KFC eat. Then went near basketball court's void deck slack. Went home and reached at around 4pm. Then blah blah blah lor. No extra lesson tomorrow. Tomorrow going cycling:)

Now I don't like to post too much of my private stuffs or secrets cuz anyone could read my blog.

I did it all over again.

2009-09-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 8plus today. Actually I could say, I can't wake up actually. Then went to prepare. Daddy gave me $50 to top up. *happy* Of cuz need to return $22 to him lah. Then had SS lessons lor, not bad lah. Time pass not very slow. Then meet Azhari and went to my house with Siti, Annisaa. Then got changed and went to meet Huiping and Wanni. Then went to Esplanade. Then waited for workshop to start. Took pictures. Hmm, learnt some about Hiphop history. And learnt Cherography steps and BBOYS(?) Aiya, all add up to a dance jiu dui ler. Damn nice yet tiring, difficult. Then after that trained to Raffles City and go Raffles City Tower. Then ate Mac. Then walk around awhile. Then went to Bugis. Bought 2 shirts and 1 skirt. $25 only, cheap right? *giggles*Haha. Then went in the mall walk around and went home. Reached home at round 8plus. Then went bathing etcs. Then found out my older sister also went bugis, and bought shirts and dress too. Lol, good, can share share. Haha. Then tomorrow I got pass to zoo lor, 4 tickets leh. Who wanna go with me?:( I think no one bah. *sniffs* Then incredible tale!! WTF!! I am facing the TV, and I don't want to hear and watch. Tomorrow got maths, should I go? :( And I think I might start homework tomorrow? And I realise my STM is getting more serious. *cries* Getting up tomorrow early too. This whole week confirm no time rest.

Kau tahu kau sayang aku. :)

For today's photos please go my facebook ty. :)

East Coast Birthday Party

2009-09-06T21:12:00.011+08:00

Sort of long post, Lol.

Woke up 8plus after much dragging myself up. Then got changed and make up. Wore dress. Went out and meet Kepei, Xuli, Shuyan, Tonglin, Hendra, Naibo, Gongkan. Saw Shuyan first and only. Then went in to 'My Party Friend' beside Fairprice extra. She already bought cake. Then bought Masks. Total $19.50. Then went back and saw Naibo first. Then Tonglin.

Went in extra and buy alot alot of things for east coast. Bought a smiley face balloon for myself. Total $46 like that. Then went out and saw Hendra, Gongkan. Then Kepei and Xuli. Then they say want make up also. So went toilet and I lend them-.-" Then they want other colour etcs. Then me and Shuyan ran down to John Little, never bought any. Then rushed to Sasa. Bought some cosmetics and it cost around $93!! Then bought a mirror which is around $2 for myself. Then rushed back to toilet and I help them put. They took around 1hr for everything to be done, Lol.

Then went to take MRT. Nidda nid to take to Bedok and it is fucking far!! I 'MRT-Sick' again lor. Sian, standing all the way. Managed to found one seat when it's at Kallang. Totally feel like vomiting lor. Then took taxi to East Coast Mac. All paid around $2.

Went to a shelter. Eat cake first:D Blow up water ball and played with it awhile. Then went to rent bike. Rawr, at first is they ride me double bike, and I want try too! But very paiseh, so I rent single. Hendra help me take my bag. Lol. Cycle very long. Then continue cycle. Then cycle till a point where people there fishing, then took alot of photos!

Then I wanted water, so I asked Hendra to pass me ice-cream soda we bought. Then I open the gas all come out and my whole body and hand is wet and stained! WTF lor, he didn't warn me!! Then continue cycle. Then WTF, my slippers broke. I just bought not even a month can!! Then cycled double bike to meet them. Then Gongkan lend Shuyan and Shuyan lend me her slippers:)

Then I cycle till lost them. Then I wanted to cry already. Then Hendra come to find me and say 'I was watching you all along, seeing when you want come.' WTF lah, see me don't want to tell me, cause me nearly cry finding them!! Then stop at one beach. Then start to play with water, eat and chatted. Then tooks photos too! Then was very angry at Hendra! Then went to cycle back to return. Paid $5 for it. Then went to sit down at a table and bench. Then chatted.

Then took 401 back to Bedok station. Freaking cold. Naibo lend me his jacket:) But it's like a dress can. Okay fine, I am the shortest there. Then I wear Gongkan slippers while I return Shuyan her slippers. Then trained back to MRT. All was split for seats. Then After all was seated, Shuyan sit beside me sleeping and Hendra seat very near me then we started crapping. Then saw Amalina.

Then we 3 start crapping malay. Then go disturb Hendra with my balloon. Then he use it to smack my face. Zzz. Then crap with the rest. But Kepei and Xuli sit very far from us, so didn't talk with them:( Then me and hendra was like laughing at a secret we had, and use that disturb Naibo, Lol. And they was like blocking my view from amalina to prevent I tell her something, Lol. Then Hendra, Tonglin and Gongkan alight at CG while Naibo alight at JE. Then Hendra very what, before he go still use my balloon smack my face. Zzz.

Then Kepei, Shuyan, Xuli and me alight at BL and they 3 went JP eat while I very tired already, so went home first. Then blah blah blah as usual lor. Lol, tomorrow have SS extra lesson, going street dance at esplanade, and dinner after that with some blah blah. Fuck, I don't get to rest at all. My dark eye circles very obvious already:( Lol. But today is really really fun! I enjoyed myself very much and very happy but tired. Stupid Hendra. Lol.

Update photos next time:P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEPEI!! <3>

Cross my heart.

2009-09-05T23:00:00.008+08:00

Went out with jialin, huiping, germane today. Suppose to meet @ 11 but they 1130 then come. Saw chelsea and keryn @ ctrl station. Then went in to MRT. Lol, we 4 take to Joo Koon then come back. So got seats ma:P Then take to orchard. Went Orchard Ion! Damn cool lor. Then went to shop around. And we getting hungry. Or isit just me? Lol. Went to eat Tori-Q! Not bad lahs, just that we had no proper seats and table and need to seat at the edges. Lol. Then went shop around. Saw a cap, or should I call it hat? Lol. Damn nice and damn suit me. And I was craving for a hat/cap too. Then I was thinking to buy anot. Then went Wisma Atria first. Shop around. Went in TopShop. Saw a black biker jacket damn nice! I FUCKING WANT IT!! It's $275 leh:( Going other places to see got other cheaper one anot. :@ I want bootie too! Ah too much things I want. Then at mango wanted to buy tanktop. It's only $15! But didn't buy in the end, thou I have enough for cap/hat and that shirt. Then went back FOX to buy my cap/hat. $16 dollars gone. Lol. Then supposed to go far east. But keryn called to tell me tuition. Then rushed back home for tuition. Totally forget today had tuition. Can't postpone, so no choice but to go. Then after that me and keryn went to eat dinner at KFC. Then shop around and went home at around 8smth. Then tomorrow going birthday party @ east coast, gonna meet at 9plus in the morning-.-" Haha, totally enjoyed today! :P

I am afraid.

Thanks for the memories

2009-09-04T21:12:00.004+08:00

Hello. Today went to school as normal. As usual, I hate school life. Seeing those people face make me hate it even more. Esp E.Geog. Got back my bloody result. Then went home to bath and change first. Make up of cuz. Went JP. Then went eat LONG JOHN:P Saw Mr neo, our form cher with his girlfriend leh! Haha. So sweet! Mr neo say if he cannot find my compre he let me redo leh! Means my mark will alter to better! Yay! But I really got hand in lor. Then one thing make me pissed off. Like I am not trustworthy like that, of cuz angry. Then went shop around of cuz, haven't bought shirts I like yet. Tues going peninsular see I suppose. Went Harris. Saw 2 books I wanted. And one author's book titles I love. Then went pop. Saw mr neo again. Lol. Then saw one damn nice thing. $18.08. But it's a girly and child stuffs. Lol. Didn't buy of cuz. Then went DDR. Then we dance dance dance. Then afterward is all me and ant dance. Then got this person take his hp take us dancing. You know, film us. Then they say practically is film me. But ant also got kena. Then I was fucking angry. He is like, practically molesting us like that? What if he post to internet? send to his friend? Rawr, think dao jiu angry. Then walk out of arcade and he went away. Then he came back the other direction to comics connection. Then we went follow him and di went in first. Then all went in settle. Then the person was like trembling can, very scared. Lol. Don't know what di said. Then he keep apologise profusely and ask for forgiveness. Rawr, deleted and scolded him. Ant and carol scold very jialat. Lol. Scold people very fun. But I didn't really scold cuz my anger was bottled, till I want to cry alr. Then I was very pissed off lah. Then checked his hp and make sure it's clear. I think he send to his friend already lor, he went toilet after that can. WTF. Then ant took his photo. Then we walk away. I think he quite ke lian lah. He just give me that pathetic look, rawr, can't stand it. Then walk around. Then remember we forgot to take his number. Then go find him. WTF. Waited outside the barber. Saw Darren while waiting:) WTF, that person went to cut hair to botak. Then still waste alot of time lah, like cut okay already, ask hair cutter cut more, and wash hair blah blah. Then still 'Hi' us someone. Then we cannot take it already, went in to the barber and take. Then went off. My anger stay inside me, like bottled up. Angry till now also haven't let it out. I think I will going to have a fever. Then even my eyes a little red and swollen already at bus interchange. My mum let us stay out till late, but I also want go home already. Reached home at around 7plus. Then online and know a fucking good news. So happy! Rawr. Haha. And Lol, it's been the 3rd month and I am still single. :D First time leh! Cuz I am serious de k. Lol!!! My papa say bring us go eat sushi! probably tomorrow!:D At first I wanted to post that bloody person/pervert pictures up. But I see him like very kelian, wtf, I got problem already. Film me still think he kelian. Idk lah. But he really very kelian like that. We make him till like very pathetic, still must smile at us. 2 things made me pissed off and my anger still not out yet!!!

Horoscope Aries Life says: (For Tomorrow) Love has probably already found you, but do you recognize it? If you deny love, you will struggle until you can get past your denial, so don't waste the time. It could take a lifetime. Above everything else, be true to yourself and let the stars lead you toward true love.

Fuck, means I MUST have a stead tomorrow? Hell no now. Unless.

And Horoscope Aries Love says: (For Tomorrow) Things are looking up today, as Aries natives have a brand new chance at love. You've been dreaming about finding someone with a warm heart and a great laugh, and today, you have the ability to bring this person from your imagination into reality. Focus on the qualities you want to manifest, and let it happen.

Not bad uhs, all good things. Hehe.

Should I go out with clique or today's gang? Dk lah.

I rather deny love and be best friends forever.

Future Holds

2009-09-03T20:45:00.004+08:00

Went to school as normal. Had english situational writing. Went home after school. Bathed and changed. Cried, don't feel like saying why. My sis gave me $20 to shop for shirts:) Met ant and carol. Bused to jp and meet jiali. Then went to eat at KFC, it's so empty today. Very rare leh. Then ate banditto pocketto AGAIN. Then a strange feeling came back, it's indescribable. Sometimes I will feel it, idk why. Then after awhile it's okay already. Went around to shop. Didn't bought any shirt:/ Actually I found one I might want. But it's around $30. So yeah, didn't buy of cuz. Then saw crystal at The Bluez and she joined us. Then walked around and went home. Holiday's quite pack and I don't think I really have free time to rest. Events like birthday party, shopping, dance, dinner, movie, homework, remedial, zoo(?) packing up my holiday. Zzz.

I know you'll be hurt if you know. I feel dirty. Again. My whole body seems like burning. Very hot very hot. I need aircon!

Love we once shared.

2009-09-02T20:39:00.007+08:00

Basically today is just all about going to school and had lessons, chatting with friends, eating, singing, watching dramas and playing computer. No CCA. Basically slacking all the way also lah. :)

Holiday's coming. *Yay*. I think I gotta get a baggy pants or smth for monday's street dance.

LIFE'S ALL ABOUT FUN.

2009-09-01T20:59:00.001+08:00

Totally Exhausted. Shall not elaborate what happened yesterday. Went cycling today. Woke up at bloody 8plus and went to meet di, kor, ant, carol. Got pissed off a little at 9Tou. Planned to cycle to Jurong Hill which is near Jurong Bird Park. It's a damn long route and my leg totally very tired. Was sort of injured during the route. A little small cut here etcs. Started raining before we reached there. Just a little more. We stop at Near Jurong Bird Park's bus-stop and stayed there for about 1hr. It ws fuckng cold and we started trembling. Then cycle in the rain back to Jurong, but stop a few times at dfferent bus-stops. We were all drenched by the time we reached Jurong Central Park. Then cycle back and we split route. I with di and the rest go shell first. I and di went to 667D to return back bike and di ride me back. Ant they all went Ant's home dry themselves. Then bought food and ate at void deck. Then went bball and then home. Was a very very fun day yet very tiring too. Tomorrow still got school. Thought was Mon tomorrow. Phew Glad got some reminded me it's Wed. I got a little unwell. Scarly fever tomorrow due to today's rain. Lol. K, gotta go. Nitez. Dear ask me to blog about her so, I love my dear:) Got pissed off alot of times today, Dk why.

friends

2009-08-29T20:34:00.006+08:00

It's been a long time since I updated.
I am simply too lazy I guess.

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Got back some of my common test.
Was quite disappointed with my result thou.

Got 11/20 for English.
Got 20/35 for E.Maths.
Got 15/40 for C.Physics.
Got 11/25 for E.goeg.
Got 7/20 for Social Studies.
And B for my Chinese CA.

And I already failed 3 out of 6. .

Currently still waiting for my C.Chemistry and F&N result.
Hope that I will pass.

...

Woke up at around 12plus today.
Early right, I know. *laughs*
Then played computer all the way till around 3plus.
Went out to GP with dear to buy cher's day present for gwen.
Drank cappuccino.
Then went for tuition.
Lied to gwen that we both got F9 for maths and bottom 2.
She was shocked before we told her it was a cher's day joke. *giggles*
Still no motivation to study:(
Then walked home with dear.
At first I got tickets for today movie G.I. Joe.
Wanted to watch with dear at night.
But the last session ends at 6pm. Rawr.
I said I want go out JP with dear at night.
Then my mum asked me, you dare meh? So dark alr.
WTH, purposely one!:(
In the end didn't go as she also don't allow also.

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Later my cousins will be coming to stay over.
Got 2 noisy kids too. Rawr!
Hope I will have a pleasant night. *laughs*
Tomorrow I still nidda go buy cher's day present with friends one k.

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I realised that I super miss my clique and friends alot. Some friends already lost in contact, and some don't even chat now. I really miss the old times hanging out with clique, and alot of friends etc. But all have their events, activities. All totally drifted apart can. All have their own other friends after separating classes, or exams to study etc. Totally have no time for each other. I guess I've been neglecting friends in the past, as being too over possessive over relationships and therefore drifted very apart from friends. But they are the one still there for me afterall, cheering me up all the times, and able to share problems with. Thou we quarrel, pissed off with each others, our bond will still be stronger than anyone others. We spent all our happiness together, sadness together. And they never leave you in lurch. They understand you, accept you, tolerate you, sacrifice for you like we did for them. Have crazy times together, having crazy thoughts together. Like almost you breathe because of them. Imissmyfriends.

We live, study hard, work hard, and then die. And that's life.

Torturing

2009-08-24T20:19:00.004+08:00

Boo! Surprised? Hah, cuz I am suppose to do F&N project pictures. And that alvin still haven't online. Ate bread with HAM today!:D Had F&N presentation. P.E. on floorball assessment today. Realised that when I play something I confirm will have bad things happen one, like either got hitted or fell down etcs. Didn't went for folk dance and maths extra lesson today. Got back our maths paper today^^ I passed it. Then after school suppose to go celebrate carol's birthday. But in the end can't find a suitable cake. In the end bought lunch and went to ant's house eat. Stayed at her house till around 6.30pm and went home alone. Ant give me D. gray man musician's keyboard score:P Damn scary k, though still quite early. Rawr, ate and bath. Drank Bacardi Breezer. Drinking now also:P Ate sushi. I think I am half drunk. Hahaha.

Why stop halfway when you have come so far?

G.I. Joe

2009-08-23T19:22:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 10plus to do my proj. Went to prepare and went out with my sisters and my sister's boyf. It's was raining. Took cab to discovery centre. Then went to buy twisties, popcorn, drinks, candies, chocolate etcs and went in to the cinema. Forgot to bring specs but I could see wor! Watch G.I. Joe. Damn nice lor! I can't wait for the second one to come out! Then at first going shooting but due to too much people, decided to go next time, or maybe this coming sat. Then went to JP shop. My sister say I wear hat very nice. Then I bought slippers. At first buying bag, but cannot find one nice one. Shirts too. I found one white shoe very nice. Wanted to buy it for school shoe but in the end lazy go back, so maybe next time then go. Then bused home. Ate chicken rice for dinner. My daddy and mummy bought sushi for us. Yay! Going to eat them later! I miss my friends, my clique and almost everything in the past alot. But they seems not the way it is like the past anymore. At least I have memories to keep. K lah, I go do homework liao^^ Update next fri:D

Bored Saturday

2009-08-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

Slept till 1plus today. Had serious headache. Had to miss going to JP to support alvin with friends. Then played comp. till around 3plus and went for maths tuition. Then chatted with dear and went home. Bathed and dinner. Then play audition with carol. Then play mahjong with my sisters and my sister boyf. Lend a shirt my kor given me the year before christmas present to my sister boyf as he is staying over! In another word today totally slacking. Had Yakult, Kinder Joy, Yoghurt etcs to eat. Yay! Tmr going discovery centre watch G.I. Joe with sisters and sister's boyf. So excited!! And morning had to do proj with alvin, and now I am not yet sleeping:P Later confirm pig then can't get up. K la, maybe going continue play mahjong liao or going lalaland alr. And going drink breezer. I guess I'll be drunk:P Wtf, it's raining and got thunder!!! Nitez everyone^^

Finally Friday.

2009-08-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

Slept with my sister last night and was grabbing her very tightly. Morning went up to quadrangle and got medal for the 10km run. Temp was 37.4 at first. I was prompt to retake and it was 37.5. Then went chinese class and my temp went up to 37.6. Gladly got fire drill:) Didn't managed to hold the extinguisher. Had normal lessons today as usual. Recess I was freaking hungry that I ate one plate of seaweed chicken rice and a pancake! Had E.goeg test. Had been doing common tests everyday of the week. Then it's freaking cold. Some few stuffs happened. Ran out of the class and went to hide alone till 130pm. Went to maths extra lesson. I passed my maths common test:) I heard someone saying like "Last saturday hor.." then didn't continue. I asked her to continue yet she didn't. I was covering my uniform on my head and right ater she said it. So I took down my uniform I was covering on my heard just right after I heard and nobody said they said that few words. But I swear I clearly heard that. Totally freaked out. Then went to CCA. Played match. Won:) Then was released at around 5plus. Went to 7eleven and went home.

I want to forget you, I am trying. Everyone is acting infront of me, I don't even know who is true now. So much about trust. Stop all the mind games. I am not up to it. And stop lying to me, are you even a friend?

Me against the world.

2009-08-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

Haha, I just woke up :O Hmm. Tdy woke up at around 4.10am and went to eat, and changed. Then went to school with jy and yc. They accompany me lah, cuz it was very dark and scary. Then reached kenny cafe at around 4plus going 5. Then realised I am the only one wearing red fbt. The rest all black shorts/fbt lor. So paiseh. Then waited for the bus to come. It was quite a long journey there. Ate banana in there and listened to MP3. Near cried due to some unhappy stuffs occurred. Don't feel like saying why. I became quiet and didn't talk after that for the journey. My emotions is uncontrollable tdy again. Then went past alot of places of memories of the past. Like somerset etcs. Depsited bags in Lim's car. Then finally reached at near the start point at around esplanade. Then started running at ard 7.30am. Ran with Tonglin. Ran past flyer, suntec etcs. Then came back and get medal :D First time ran 10km, after running finish I am so damn happy. Then go find the rest and gather. Took pictures. Then went to bubbletea shop and Shuyan treat Yokeleng, Tonglin, Xinlei and me! Drank Chocolate blog. Then went wait for bus and Lim collect the medals from us and say want to present to us on stage. So paiseh lah. Then take bus back. Then listen to MP3 again and thought alot of stuffs. And that really 'enlighten' me. Then went to eat KFC with Humlau, Kohmin and Shuyan. Then went home and used comp. jy di, my sis and dear asked me out but I am simply too tired to go. So slept. So sorry. Then later in the night I going to study for maths again. Upload pictures next time.

I think I don't even understand or know what is love. So I don't think I fit to love/be in love. I want to find out more about love. I don't even know how to define. Why people after getting hurt started not to believe, hate or became a paranoid to love? So why so irritating or desperate wanting someone back? So I'm learning to keep quiet, and try to let go, move on. Maybe that's the best way for this love. Or by simply having faith. I still have alot of flaws about love and I guess some is already part of me. But for now, I don't think I am ready to love yet. Love, I think I will come to realise it one day:) And I'll show you, I am ready.

Give me your hand, trust me and I'll show you the world.

I love you

2009-08-15T20:54:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile since I updated. Ran 7km on wed. Watch where got ghost with ant, carol and jiali on fri. Damn scary but damn funny. I didn't expect it was that scary, I thought it will just be a comedy. And it adds on to my fear. Grab tight onto ant and screamed very loud. Then saw my sister and friends. Went DDR. Then bused and went to gekpoh alone. Bought smth my mummy asked me to buy and went home. Then tdy nid to meet at 7am but no matter how hard I struggled I still can't get up. I was kena forced up by my sister but still, can't get up. But still drag myself up at 7.15am and changed. Went to meet rs kor, jy di and my sis. Damn sleepy. Then went to 7eleven eat breakfast and went bball. Then go back stairs and chatted till around 1plus. Made paper aeroplanes. Wrote our wishes and let it fly. Littering:P Hope it come true. Then bathed, changed and went out to meet them again to go lib. Saw ling with her pri schl friends in lib and Minkwan and friends in lib. Then Minkwan's friends say I look very mature, look like 18 like that, cuz I make up. Haha, can go buy beer :O Then ling come tease me and say ask me go 2nd level for the children story telling and before I went off, she say her friend wants my number-.- Then rushed to eet dear and went for tuition. Then wentback at 6plus and meet jy di and my sis and chatted till 8plus. Then ate dinner! Sushi, Takoyaki and egg tart! It's like in heaven man. Then tomorrow gotta get up at ard 4 as I nid to go school for 10km Army Half Marathon. Wish me luck. At first I was scared that I'd to walk to schl alone, but thank goodness my friends are accompanying me. Jiali, I won't crop your pictures away:P Common Test is coming and Monday's maths. I will try my best. Still, I am very very tired and I need rest. And I think I am getting more and more vain.

Pictures from yesterday:

From topleft: Me, Caroline. From Bottomleft: Anthea, Jiali.

From left to right: Jiali, Me, Caroline.

There's alot more but I don't feel like putting here:P

So close yet so far

2009-08-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

Suppose to wake up at 5plus AM today lah. But I too pig I can't get up lah. But gladly, it rained! So we didn't run in the end so I continue to be pig lah. Then kena disturbed up at around 10plus and went out to stairs to chat with rs kor, jy di and my sis. Then went back around 12 and went to bathed, changed, prepare and make up! Then went to meet ant, carol and jiali. Ant's dad drive us to the karaoke there. We reached at around 1plus. Then started singing. Then all become high and hyper. Then enjoy and very happy. I play and sing like a mad woman. And drank 2 glass of drinks :P Then a little comflict happened and ant and carol didn't talk awhile. Then we end at around 4plus and ant dad drive us back. Then suppose to go JP with jiali and friends but ya, it's already 5plus so I and carol head to my house. Then saw jy di, rs kor and my sis so joined them and chatted again. Then went and reached home at around 7. Then maybe tomorrow going out JP or where shopping or thursday bah. Only ate one meal today and that's dinner. Pathetic right. I know. Lol, but nvm, I don't really have appetite still. Tomorrow got school :( Means I can't update blog until Fri unless if can.

I Give Up. Totally. Maybe. Trying.

National Day

2009-08-09T23:39:00.004+08:00

Woke up at around 11plus in the morning. Then chatted on the phone awhile and went to prepare. Bathed and changed. Then went out at 2 as I need to meet CP papa at 215. Saw jy di with his classmates at JPCS. Then went to walk JP awhile. Went to find slippers but yeah, didn't find one I like. Then pei CP find the-forget-how-to-spell-the-name set. The one for singing one. Lol. Then went to play bball awhile at 760. Then went to 7eleven bought drinks. CP papa bought me a capsules that contain 2 little miss and mr.'s keychains. Inside got two and I got Little Miss Shy and Mr. Greedy. Thanks CP. Then went void deck. Sang and chatted. CP teach me some singing stuffs. And took one photo but I deleted. :P Then went to play bball again. CP play match while I go shoot ball. Shoot quite long and with alot of force. Then I shoot in one 3 pointer one k. Not bad right, normally two pointer I rarely shoot in, don't even say 3 pointer, but today I shot in! So happy. After play I felt much better. CP accompany me home and I reached home at around 7plus. Then went bathed and ate. Didn't really see the NDP. Then done with ling's bowling skin. Finally can have some free time:) Nidda wake up at 5plus tmr. Going running at 6plus. And afternoon going to sing karaoke. I think I need some rest, I am very tired. And my whole body's aching alot.

I am not gonna be beaten down by all this. I will hold on.

Runaway;

2009-08-08T22:16:00.011+08:00

Hello. It's been a long time since I post a proper post:) Monday Prac do cheeze Macroroni. P.E. played floorball. After school was the FD filming. Didn't attend maths lesson as we need to gather at around 3pm. Han nan, Xin lei and me went to the toilet near the MRL. Lent Han nan my FD dress, and he wears it! So damn funny but yeah, took pictures. Then filmed till around 7plus. Walked back with dear and saw Andy half way, so all walked together. Was wearing heels all the way home, and it hurts.

Tuesday we had lessons lor, Had Chem and SS test. SS test's a killer. I don't know how to do much of it. :X Went to JP with amalina to have lunch and shop. I went crazy over stuffs.

Wednesday they say my eyes looks damn puffy and my veins coming out. After school badminton lor. But actually my legs have blisters so can't run, but in the end still try. We ran roughly 8 to 9 rounds around the stad track and it's a relay. Was super tired. Homed with marilyn and my sis.

Then thursday after school went to MAC takeaway and went ant's house. Watched anime and ate. Danced and do stupid actions, but it's really fun. Then reached home at around 7plus.

Then yesterday went out with ant and carol after NDP. We mus wear very kuazhang and put make up, but I didn't really wear very kuazhang lah. Then went to cityhall. Planned to go Peninsular, but end up in Raffles City Tower. Ate at a Jap restaurant. Damn ex can, I spent around $20 at there. Then ant shoe broke, so went around the mall to find a shoe. Then ant went home first and I and carol went JP takeaway for my dinner. Shopped at MYFACESHOP. Then went home and reached at around 6plus.

Today woke up at around 5AM. I slept at around 1plus 2plus AM okay. Supposed to meet at 5am, but ya, Too tired. Cp papa morning called me and I was freaking shock and alert by the music. Lol. Then YC went out meet jy di first. Then told them I go prepare, but in the end, I sneak back sleep awhile. :X Then jy di called me around 3 times and I was woke up by that again. Then went to change, and went out to meet them at around 5.30AM. Then chatted till around 6plus 7plus AM went to find rs kor. Supposed to cycle in the morning, but Jun hao and rs kor can't get up :( Then went to 7eleven and bought breakfast to eat. Instant noodles again, lol. I injured my leg as I banged onto the shells that put drinks. Then bleed lor, and quite painful although I think it's not serious. Then went to Jurong central park slack. Then had alot of fun and took alot of pictures! Then went home first and my slippers broke, supposed to walk bare footed home all the way, but jy di give me his shoe halfway. :( Then reached home at around 12 and watch anime awhile.

Some unhappy family matters occured and I cried so terrible. Then finally went out at around 2plus. Went to find jy di. Took the bicycle. If you see my ride, confirm very funny. Cuz the bike damn short and it fits me! Then rongtat, jy di, my sis and me cycled to find rs kor at stad. Jun hao cannot makeit:( Jy di cycled my sis. Got the bloody slope, I don't dare to cycle, so I took a much longer route. Then rs kor ride my sis. Cycled to Jurong central park, at first Jurong Hill, don't want to say why. Then cycle in the park and had so much fun. Then become jy di ride me and my sis ride my bike. Damn them, they say my skill is lousier than my sister.

But seriously, of cuz lah, I let people ride only, I rarely ride myself. Then as expected, I injured myself lah again, My leg kena cut by the bike lor. Injured twice in a day, zzz. Then I ride my that bike again and went safra. Then cycle again. Then went to back to GP buy bubbletea, then rushed to mee keryn dear. Was damn sweaty and my leg damn ache. I didn't expect leg need so much effort to cycle. Lol. Then went to meet dear for tuition, then bought bubbletea and reached home at around 8pm. Then bathed. Maybe going out with CP papa tomorrow to shop :P

I don't need this kind of family, neither friends nor love too. Even clique's going apart, and brother and sisters too. I hate to be alone. I want to run, run run run! and never come back. I am not happy anymore.

National Day's tomorrow!

This's taken at Jurong central Park today.

Me and Han nan.

Xinlei and Han nan.

Han nan1.

Han nan2.

No comments allowed for the pictures took with Han nan taken on filming. Thanks!

2009-08-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

I THOUGHT.
Cuz you never really knew, how it really feels.

Waiting for the impossible

2009-08-02T20:07:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 11plus today. Don't know will go out with ant, carol and jiali or jy di, rs kor etcs. But in the end ant they all change to next mon, national day holiday:P Suppose to go arena with jy di they all at first, but didn't in the end. Went out and meet jy di at stairs with sis at around 12plus. Then meet rs kor at 1plus. Jun Hao ps us:( Then went to 7eleven and bought lunch. Ate at the BBQ pit and chatted. Then went to fitness corner near the BBQ pit. Played till around 4pm went to my block's stairs there and chat again. Thinking should go swimming anot, but changed to Sat 8aug. Chat till around 6plus going 7 then went home.

Going cycling at 8aug with my sis, jy di, rs kor and junhao, but I don't really know how to cycle much. We going to Hill near Jurong bird park there, cycle all the way. Confirm will injured or fall one lor me, so many up and down and obstacles. If you see me fly out or injured don't be surprised lol. At first I kena ride, but I don't want. Not I am scared or what k! Just I want the last person who ride me is ya. K lah, maybe I am a little scared too. So I'm cycling on my own. Unless I can think alternatives. We thought of alot, like scooter or what, but in the end bicycle still the best lor. Nid to wake up at around 4plus in the morning can!? Then after cycling go to bball. Bball till around 12 go eat lunch, then go swimming. Wah, so many!!! I confirm very tired lor, so early wake up~ I am a pig :P

Maybe if I kena ride I sleep during journey bah. Wakakakaka. And I was like teasing, I go find a one day boyfriend, just to ride me to there. Lol! But nah, I ain't that kind of person. Lol. My hair grew long again!! So happy! Tmr's FD filming! Hannan's going to wear my dress to scandal! Then going take pic, will post the pictures at Fri:D Hahaha, my hair need to be kena spray up one lor. K lah, tmr have maths test. My right hand's injured I guess:( Going study already^^

I finally get a taste of stress. It's like, you study for tests already, really listen in class already. You will get really tense for exams. And keep concentrate and don't wanna make mistakes. And it leads me to unable to complete all the tests. Then I rather I don't listen and study. Then so much distractions! And so many people broke up this few days, seeing them sad, I am sad too. They tell me about it, I wanna make them happy too. And confessions to handle and trying not to hurt them or what, there's homeworks which I can't complete too! Alot of stuffs to care for, think about, I wait for someone that impossible but I am hanging on and making myself having false hope, but I believe in it. No matter how impossible it is. And really don't want to say out my feelings to make another sad or worried because of me. Not I want to think too much sometimes, but ya, too much stuffs for me to think. You still need to think of your family and friends. There's alot of stuffs in my head that I really wanna get rid of! I really don't know what I am feeling inside already. You may think single means freedom and care lesser, ya is true for some, but I realise I think more stuffs being single, cuz ya, you don't have people occupying your time and sharing problems. I am quite tired already sometimes, what if I can put down everything at one go? Friends come and go. Seriously, not many bonds are so strong. I want to learn to control my emotions, I am trying, yet it's so difficult. It just add on to my everything. I fear the dark and loneliness, and it make me think even more, thinking how not to scared, how scary it is. I want to be really happy, and the others too. But there's so much more adding on.

My depression is getting worser.

11to5.

I need you because I love you.

2009-08-01T22:34:00.013+08:00

PEPPERMINT MAKES YOU NO SPERM FOR THAT DAY!
Just learnt that today, haha. I thought it only make them infertile:X

Kena disturbed and woke up at around 9plus in the morning. Then went to prepare and changed. Went down to meet rs kor and jy di with my sis. Then went to play basketball awhile. Totally no strength and damn sleepy. Then went to eat Maggi noodles and Gulp. Sat at the BBQ pit there. Talk about the Army things, when we grow up etcs things. Then went back to play basketball awhile. Bought ice-cream! Then had horny talks. Then I started laughing. I don't know why I kept laugh till cannot stop. I laughed at least 1hour plus. But nothing really funny happy. Lol, amending for the past half year? Then went home at around 1plus.

Bath and changed. Went down to meet them again to go JP at around 2. Then took my house there bus stop to JP, quite long lah. Then walk around and went in Star Factory. Rs kor play Maximum Tune(Midnight) and I see others play. Then went to find Scoopz machine. Still can't find any pig.. Then went around. Went NTUC to buy snacks at first, then saw Jun Hao, not jy's di. He came along with us. Then went the Jurong Central Park or Art Park idk lah. Then went to chat and play there. Chatted where to go etcs next time. So damn cool lah! Then walk back and to gekpoh. Reached Gekpoh @ around 6plus. Then went to buy bubble tea. Jun Hao treat:P Then went to buy jy's di present. I saw and realised I want alot of stuffs.

Went home and reached at around 6.40pm. Then took my bag and went to find dear. Then went to tuition. Talked alot and yeah, revised trigo. Then thank goodness got dear accompany till near my block there. I'm very very scared of the dark. I guess I think alot alot, and scared of the thing till alot. I guess I heard too much ghost stories. Till no one can help me anymore now. I suppose I need people to walk me home everytime. At least got people to talk to and accompany me.

I feel like going out to the stairs now!:(
Anyone knows what i am feeling inside? idk.

Today marked the first day of Aug09.

12:34:56, 07/08/09.
123456789.
Nice leh? Alot of people sent me this message:)
It won't happen again in our life.
I wonder if any miracles will happen as it is so special.
090909 also very nice leh, like long long long like that:P

Gwen shared with me this: Even though I walked through the valley of shadow of death, I fear no evil. For You are with me, Your rod and Your staff they comfort me.
Thanks for your bible verse in trying to help me to overcome my fear and loneliness which leads to it, much appreciated.

I am very very tired already, seriously.

I don't even have a chance now.

2009-07-31T22:56:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'd totally forget what happened Wednesday. I only remember about running 5 rounds on stadium track during badminton training and the part that my friends told me my face was all pale after the bloody run.

Thursday I also nearly forget about all the things. I only remember that I'm suppose to eat pepper lunch with tong, dan and maybe some others but in the end I postponed it cuz carol and ant asked me out and I want to go out with ant and carol. It's been a long time since we'd shopped. Met ant, carol and jiali outside 3F, and went ant house first. Saw amalina along the way to her house. Then took bus to JP and ate pepper lunch! Then went around shopping and buy stuffs. Had alot of fun. Reached home at around 6plus going 7.

Today had Chinese test. I cried after taking it, I don't know how they can complete it and left with so much time!! I didn't do the whole comprehension in the test! Imagine that, WHOLE COMPREHENSION OKAY!?!?! 20 marks fly away leh!!! Then physics also got test on forces and kinematics, also didn't complete!:( Then EL we knew that we'd change form cher to Mr Neo! Whole class confirm don't need learn already lor, all so noisy, even me:X Then Egoeg got back test I got 9 marks. I need just 1 more mark. Zzz. Shien and Xinlei too. Hehe, all 9 marks. Then after school went to find Raheja and went ate at Kenny cafe. Then saw ling, ping and meifu. Played with them. Lol. Then went changed and bought lemon tea for run. School bus to Macritchie. Then ran, listening to music all the way. I realised it is way easier than the track running and 2.4km. I don't know why, just my thinking I suppose. end up at split road, some need split to 5km or 3.5km. I went the 5km one, don't ask me why. I also don't know why I so stupid. Lol, but good for training. Then after running finish I am so damn glad, keep took pictures with friends. Then bused back to WWSS. Bused back to home with Marilyn, My sis. Saw Baoling and she's like scared of me, and I go scare her even more:P Then they all say I very scary. Lol, saw Benny on bus. Chatted with him awhile. Then reached home and chatted with jy di and rs kor at stairs. Then jiameng kor came our house and chatted. He went home at 7plus and then online. Quite hyper this few days, I don't know why. But always will keep think too much. Rawr. And I don't like Goeg room, everytime it will make my mood foul idk why.

Thanks and sorry, I can't accept your love either.

You still stand a chance, I don't even have one, so cheer up!:)

PICTURES!:D

Me and Reheja.

Me and Raheja 2.

Me and Yokeleng.

Me, Tonglin, Yokeleng, Raheja.

Xinlei zilian!

Yanjun, Janice, Me and Raheja.

Act cute de! Lol.

Me!

Still got alot of pictures lah, but I very unglam and alot zilian. Hahaha.

Inside out.

2009-07-28T17:08:00.010+08:00

Boo! My mummy let me use comp awhile:) Currently this few days mood will not be so good, in other word, emotional:X

Yesterday Met carol with my sis to go school. Talked with caroline and I am super happy to school. Had attire check. F&N had Iron Chef, I didn't participate as the time to prepsre for it I was sick. So while they cook, I had to sit aside and watch, and I do maths HW. Then had 2.4km run, I ran, still can manage at the start, but my leg was fucking pain as I had training on Fri and that make my muscle pull very much. Suddenly exercise so much but I still can run with that. Then I start cramp, and I can't even stand and walk. But I still manage to complete at around 18mins and I passed even after sitting and struggling so long-.-" I want to rerun no matter what, It's a diedie. I must run in in 15mins time. But everytime no stamina after 1st round lol. Then had lesson lor, didn't had chemistry presentation as teacher go through textbook.

Today also met caroline with sis to school. Today assemble at quadrangle. Attire check again. Then had MT, then Chemistry. Had to present today, so paiseh. Then recess thanks son for helping me buy milk come up:D Then went sick bay, not gonna say here why, if you are close to me you should know why, my sick bay record is zzz. But I very guai today morning got eat medicine:D Then rest there till around 12nn went back class, had lessons then went off went seemin, shien and joey. Saw aiai and jiali. Then went to gekpoh with Seemin and saw siti halfway. Chatted and seemin went buy her ppc and I buy my lunch go back, Mcnugget upsize! Haha. Cuz upsize got shaker fries!!!!!<3> Then went home with seemin. Then me, mummy and daddy crap and shared my lunch with mummy cuz simply to much that can't finish. Then ask my mum what is migrane and drag till us. Told her I had __________ and she said she nearly had it too last time lol. I play play say she passed down to me, then she say no, cuz she didn't get it in the end. She ask me not to think so much, must "xiang kai" abit and learn to control. Or later will make myself die only. LOL. But that ain't easy. But it's curable. But I think I is okay de leh-.- Then my mum keep tease my dad one day he will get it one day eventually. LOL. Then practice dancing with heels awhile. Then went to do something very painful but it's a must:( I am still cramping and I don't know how to go for cca tmr.

Save me please, I am dying inside out.

Believing

2009-07-26T18:07:00.008+08:00

I'd changed new skin and song. Today is sunday and I'm freaking bored at home. Tomorrow had school, hope I won't get sick or get send home. Tomorrow had FD filming and heard that it's going to start at 530pm. I hope it won't end too late, I don't wanna head home myself in the night. Tomorrow also have chemistry project presentation and I hope it will end faster. Tomorrow got 2.4km and my two legs still in pain. Maybe too long never run then friday suddenly run so much. Hope I can come in 12mins, I changed my timing, cuz I want to aim higher. Heard that this year As and Bs then got gold, no Cs, grr! I want to get gold!

Tomorrow will get my FD costume! So excited! But my fan is still broken and I need to fix it by tonight! Recently watched an anime called Shangri-La and it is quite nice! And Kaasan - Mom's life also a very funny anime. Now I got listen in class already k. Just that still no motivation to do homework:( Maybe later in the night I go do maths HW.

Today morning I don't know why I wake up and my mood is freaking sad. Then wake up got watched then solar eclipse on TV awhile. Tomorrow I am dying to go school! Oh yeah, I haven't do the Iron Chef and I don't feel like doing it seriously. The day I know I need to hand in on Thurs is Wednesday night and I had only left an hour like that to complete. Don't know will affect marks anot.

K lah, going to bath and eat dinner already! I keep eat eat eat this few days hope I didn't get fat:X

Why are you making my life suffering? fuck you. I feel as if I am going to breakdown sooner or later, so much stuffs happening.. I really can't take it already..

I don't have depression.

2009-07-24T21:01:00.009+08:00

BLOGGER IS CRAZY.

Went to school as usual lah. Had lesson and abit pissed off during Egoeg awhile then separate into group work. K lah, it was fun for group work and that make me feel better but I'm working with all guys zzz. Then went to gekpoh with Raheja and ate. Then went stad. Sec 3 train running first on track. Run one run got interval, but it is for doing crunches and push up. It's a must. Then run around 5 rounds, but it was tiring, then went up to buy milk and drink after that and went up play badminton and do footwork. I forgotten how to do and I had to redo 3times, imagine that! Then read magazines and end at 5pm. Heard that 10km Ms F will be going with us, and had to gather quite around 4plus or 5plus in the morning at 16aug. Can wear FBT and had to wear the bloody run shirt. Can bring HP listen songs:P Then went home with humlau and marilyn. Then bathed and changed. Then chatted with ling and ping. I needa think of something I might not sleep tonight but I believe if there's a will, there's a way:)Realised I had depression and I don't want! I must confirm with someone first. Gah, no wonder I got the bloody 'dark side' and I still thought it's just me thinking too much. But nvm, I will be okay! I realise I feel that I don't belong to the clique, everyone seems strangers to me, maybe drifted apart.. :( and -'- it, it's acting up. And I dislike the way you treat me. And I don't seem to be myself anymore.

Sweet Little Things

2009-07-22T12:33:00.012+08:00

Didn't went school today again. Still unwell lah. I miss my friends! Just woke up not long. Friday I'd CCA and I don't know how to go for it. Hope I will recover by then. It's been very long already. Hope I can catch up my schoolwork! Yesterday kena caught by ms f and my skirt is spoiled. I can't buckle and I had to hold it throughout the day. Then was screamed at. Missed my whole F&N and recess. My dad's keep ask me do maths question, but damn it! I want to, but simply too lazy. Maybe later go revise some. Heard that tomorrow or friday we'll had Egoeg test, and I totally missed so much lesson and I gonna fail it. I seriously want to study hard already. Just lack of some motivation, or should I say, nothing can make me study.

2.4km is on next mon, and I missed it this mon. Hope I can run lesser than 15mins, that's my aim. I want to get top 10 in class this year for result. And I don't wanna fail my english! I seriously think I should stop fooling around and start on my work already. But the temptation for something else seems stronger than the temptation to studies:( I wanna go school tomorrow as there's folk dancing rehearsal! I'm one of the best dancer:) So glad that I stand beside my dear for the formation stuffs. Just ate my medicine not long and I still feel a little unwell. I missed the solar eclipse:( If I had the chance to go back to the wishing fountain, I will still make the wish again, to be with you forever. I love you but you don't love me anymore..

~~Do I even belong inside this clique? Do I even have true friends? Do I even can trust?~~

Good luck to those who are taking HCL O'lvl:)

2009-07-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

JUST FINISH PACKING BAG^^v
Kena praise by auntie just now that I slimmed down even more!
Hoho, then took my temp just now.
37.3 leh!^^
But in aircon room wearing tanktop without jacket.
I scared temp will be higher tmr.
And kena send home:(
Today evening so happy.
Received msg:D:D:D:D
K abit childish, but yeah.
LOL, tmr got chem presentation.
Jiayou! Damn alvin today never bring.
Then we deduct mark:(
LOL, tmr bag so heavy.
Tdy got FD sure very fun lor:(
K, bye!! Update on Fri unless kena send home!
LOL!
I want to regain my confidence bit by bit.
And I am regaining:D
I believe I can one!!

I just need one more chance..

Effondrer

2009-07-20T12:15:00.005+08:00

Woke up @ 11plus.
Didn't attend school today.
Still sick and unwell.
Today had folk dance lor.
I wanna go school one sia.
But I think I thought of something stupid.
"No motivation" stuff.
Only I know I suppose..
So decided to stay home and not spread to others also.
Heard tongtong said they run 2.4km today.
I haven't even start to train for it!
My gold! Hahaha, here I come!
So damn bored at home lah, while most of your friends are in school having fun.
Today our group also got Chemistry presentation.
Hope it runs well bah, all the best to you guys.
Today F&N also making Nasi Lemak!
OMG, today so much fun things!(Even thou bag will be damn heavy!)
Tomorrow hope can return school already!
But tomorrow lesson no fun one.
Don't know lah, anyway I also sitting at the back corner of the class.
Sleep also, LOL.
My hair grow long again! Wakakaka.
Hope it can grow even faster and longer soon:)
"It must be my imagination".
I-am-talking-crap-that-only-I-understand.
LOL. K lah, just ate my breakfast not long.
So damn full:(
No choice, for my medicine
Later gng eat medicine alr!
FUWAFUWA~

Diva.

2009-07-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

Just bathed out not long.
Just now played Wii and realised my hand was injured-.-"
Then don't know tomorrow got go school not:(
Hope can.
Must pester daniel son.
Lol! And tmr thr's FD.
And I just washed my shoe tdy.
Lol, die, wear normal school shoe lor:)
Then now I still feel unwell leh:(
Sian, haven't pack bag etc!:X
Later bah, bye!
Won't be update till Fri. Zzz:(
Unless I sick, Hahahah.

My Love.

2009-07-19T15:48:00.002+08:00

So sorry yesterday never post:P
Just ate finish a Donut Empire donut!
Given by my sister boyf.
But totally no appetite still.
But no choice, had to eat the bloody medicine:(
Sorry to those I never reply in MSN yesterday:X

190709(yesterday)
Woke up at 11plus then sms and msn as usual.
Then ate kuey tiao as breakfast cum lunch.
As usual like this few days, I can't finish.
Gah, now is not I want diet, is food let me diet.
LOL!
Then at around late afternoon my older sister boyfriend come:P
Then he don't dare press doll bell:(
I still thought of disiao him say wrong door at first!
But bo bian, haha.
Then my sister go open door.
Then he was very tired lol.
He walk from boonlay lol.
With our Wii!!!!!!!!<3>
Then played with her iPhone with my older sister.
Crap damn load! Unlike the 'me' in class.
Hahaha, but being crapper then is me what! :P
Ask my closer friends and they'll know.
Then my sister was like saying.
"both same same kind one-.-"
He said he found his shadow(me) LOL!
Then crap and laugh really alot.
Like despite Im sick?
So long never enjoy myself so much.
Then went bathed and dinner.
Dinner I and him really crapped alot.
And like finally so long my family sit like a family for dinner:P
I also think I crap til can very BHB.
But being BHB means got confidence right?(Chey~ Excuses! LOL!)
Make him nearly vomit out, haha.
But my family enjoy all the laughters and enjoyment!
SO HAPPY!!!
Then went in sister room go see he install Wii!<3>
Then crapped even more!
I am the most crappiest yst:D
Then took some pictures!
Then finally install finish.
My sister and him play first.
OMG, the olympics one they really run, swim all that.
So cool!
Then left me and yc play.
Then we play table tennis all that.
Omg, got vibration all that!
Like real!!!
SO DAMN COOL!
Then changed to TrashTV.
That one an play till you crazy one.
Some even can dance, drive etcs!
Still got mariokart blah blah.
Hahaha.
My sister bought another Wii remote so I and my sister won't fight:P
Then most of time confirm I and YC play one:P
They two watch Shrek at first, so sweet there wtf.
LOL, then see we two so funny say can don't watch watch us play can alr.
Hahah, then play till around 12 he went home.
Then around 12plus we go sleep already.
Had a super weird dream.
Miserable, cuz it's about lahlahlah.
LOL. Then very sad, happy blah blah.
Cuz it seems so real, yet saddening if it was real-.-"
Slept till 2plus then woke up.
So long dream, zai sia.
Sleep around 14 hours. LOL.
Now I feel super giddy and unwell:(
And my stomach hurts.
K, gng getamped liao.
Hope tmr can recover go school.
Or should I say, if cuz I want folk dancing.
LOL!
K, try to update tonight<:

-DRAFTED-

Gambateh!

Haywire.

2009-07-17T23:01:00.008+08:00

Switched back to CBOX.

I feel I'm a weirdo.
Sometimes some kind of feelings just came into my mind.
When I think, happened, or flashbacks.
And it will make me feel like doing some weird things to it.
Cuz I feel uneasy.
And think about weird thing.
Like just now my lappy hang.
I was frustrated and I wanted to eat my whole lappy up.
Or take up my whole lappy, pull it hard apart.
Or just throw it down with force.
And I will experienced a very strange feeling.
Since young I'm always like this.
Hilarious, isn't it?
I can even thought of some weird stuffs and really did that.
Some that even you guys can't imagine.
Tell me, why am I experiencing this-.-
Or I had mental problems, or depression.
LOL.

I never blog about this before.
Cuz I scared later everyone treat me like a person having mental problem.
But I think I should ask the world their views.
Cuz I really feel very uneasy and weird O.O
Tag/comment me if you know what's going on. :)

Forgetting

2009-07-17T18:30:00.008+08:00

Woke up @ 8plus tdy.
Still feeling unwell :(
Didn't went school tdy.
On msn and chatted with CP papa etcs.
And surf web.
Then ate lunch and medicine.
Then changed blog songs etcs.
Bored.
Nothing to do at home.
Then surf net, chatted with Uzair.
Then played with dan MSN games for quite some time.
Hope by mon my sickness will be okay already bah.
I miss my friends!
Tuition tonight is cancelled as I am sick:(
Postponed to nextweek I guess.
Don't want spread to other people.
Today was the third day I had been sick alr
And I still feel unwell :(
Bye! Going getamped:D

[/edited @ 7.30pm]
Ate dinner and it was my fav dish!
But I ate and had alot left.
Don't know why, just no appetite.
Ate cuz it as my fav dish and medicine.
But at least I got eat some right?
Nvm. Looking forward to Mon's FD:)

[/edited @ 9.47pm]
Gah, freaking sian now.
I want my hair faster grow even longer and straighter!!
Then I want everyday zilian.
LOL:P
Tmr's a saturday!
Gng do facebook quizzes liao:P
Jiejie go clubbing liao.
I want go too leh!!:(

TeeJay Yagami: Aiyo, heard u got fever... better take care of urself ok? U can call Kor cause that's what ur sis used to call me...
Chantel Chiam Hui Cheang: Haha k thanks! Kor~ Hahaha. :D You too take care alright! Last long with my sister! :D
TeeJay Yagami: haha... I will make it happen!

Hope it will come true, Haha.

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I wanted alot of stuffs.. never ending.. LOL!

Duplicated.

2009-07-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

:(
Just ate medicine not long.
Choose some clothes and some are very nice I suppose:)
Then played getamped.
Got one person very pervert can.
Keep ask me pervert stuffs.
And wanna pah siao with me.
I am not a prostitute can.
What the f.
I still thought that he very good can.
First friend made online in Getamped.
Then become like this zzz. :(
So disappointed.

I must get up after I fell. I can't remain like what I am now.

Secret Valentine.

2009-07-16T18:04:00.002+08:00

Woke up @ 6plus today.
Went take temp and it was 39.2:(
So can't go school.
Msg daniel and tongtong.
Then went see doctor @ 8plus like that.
Ate big breakfast, shared with my mum.
Managed to see the doctor @ around 10. zzz.
Then temp is 39.0 like that. :(
And got throat infection, plus cough all that.
And I am freezing like hell:(
Doctor gave me tdy and tmr MC as he say by tmr I will not able to recover.
And I nidda rest more.
So till Mon then I can go back.
Then went home and slept.
Temp was 39.5:(
Msg dear and tongtong.
Then dan and tongtong they all want me for proj.
Then in the end I go KFC find them first.
Got siti, seemin, daniel, jiahao, lz, tongtong.
At first karhow and alvin wanna come too I heard.
Junwen wanna come but in the end cuz something happened then blah blah.
Then some eat.
I never, no appetite:(
Then they tell me alot of people never go school.
I think is I spread de lah.
Feel so guilty:(
Hope they recover soon and not me spread de.
Then my sister say 1 out of 3 will get h1n1 and I hope I wont:(
Then they all came my house without lz.
As something happen then blah blah.
Then we all played truth or dare.
We gonna get a treat from Daniel to pepper lunch @ Tues!
Hehehe, cuz he don't wanna do the dare.
We prank call, say alot of jokes.
Then siti went off first.
Okay lah, I still feel very unwell.
Then played audition awhile and chatted alot.
Then know quite some stuffs.
Laugh tgt and etcs.
Then @ around 6 they went off.
I think they gng 7eleven eat.
Heard that I sit most behind's corner:(
I don't want lah, I want study de:(
Thanks all for coming today:)
Later maybe gng bath and sleep ler.
And eat medicine!:(
I feel super unwell can!:(

I am very BHB and XIASUAY.

2009-07-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Yo.
Just ate finish.
Sad, was forced to eat as I need to eat medicine.
Thank god that I had medi from my sister.
It was only soup and rice while my family eat prawn all that.
Imagine how pathetic it is.
Lol, but I go eat some pieces of chocolate and it makes me feel much better.
And Ice lemon tea too.
Just now slept in the afternoon.
Can't get up @ 7plus but had to as I need to bath.
So kena disturbed till I get up zzzz.
Then Daniel and Tongtong go without me!!
Daniel still msg me yst night ask me go.
Lol, nvm.
I was sick, so I also don't really have strength so okay lah.
Forgiven. Lol!
Sms daniel and played game with him in msn.
Chatted.
Lol, then he wanna me post here that
I am shorter than him.
But see is no different lah:(
Then he keep critisize me zzz.
Then don't know tomorrow got go school anot leh.
Haish.
At first in the afternoon I feel okay.
Then something happen then blah blah.
Then someone add on then blah blah.
Then sleep lor.
Later gng eat medicine liao.
Hope will recover soon.
And not can't go back school and go hang out. :(

Sick

2009-07-15T11:55:00.011+08:00

140709(yesterday)
Woke up as usual yesterday.
Met ant and carol to school with my sis.
Went school and had lessons.
Then after school went to complete chem proj.
With tongtong, daniel and Irhas.
And siti and jiahao came join us.
Crapped and gossiped alot.
Then jiahao and Irhas went home first while
Me, tongtong, daniel and siti went gekpoh KFC eat.
Then go void deck @ beside gekpoh.
Crapped alot and played truth or dare.
We keep ask daniel stuffs.
LOL.
Then abit censored stuffs lol.
Then chatted and gossiped alot.
Then had alot of fun.
Then saw syaza and she came chat awhile.
S-YA-ZA. LOL!
Me, tongtong, daniel, siti took a group photo.
Then went home.
Ate sea ham at night!
Like oyster that one, but not oyster.
Cooked it to kill it.
So damn nice can.
Need to open the shells.
Then omg lah, i love it!

150709(today)
Struggled and woke up late today.
Knew I was a little sick lah.
Then I go take temp 37.4/5 like that.
Abit sore throat and cough.
I think it's okay.
Then went school lor.
Meet ant, carol with my sis.
Lend umbrella frm ant.
Then abit drenched lah.
Saw siti!
Then went to meet up with tongtong.
Want disiao people,
But daniel haven't come.
Saw yokeleng near our class.
Chatted abit.
Took temp and it was 38.1
Kena send down to retake temp.
So ps can. Only me frm my class.
Wore the n95(?) mask.
Then it was 37.9.
Then need wait them to contact parent lor.
I don't wanna go home de, they don't let:(
I wanna cherish everday in school lor.
Don't tell you why:P
Wait till around 9 then went up take my bag.
My CL class people look at me so ps.
Then wait damn long then mummy came.
Took bus to GP.
At first see doc de, but cher say today don't need produce MC.
As today I got excuse.
In the end went buy breakfast and went home.
My head damn giddy and fever like never go down.
But I okay leh.
Mummy say maybe tomorrow then go see doc.
Just came home my feng shi act up again.
As I feel damn cold.
Then keep cough cough very miserable!!
I took out my blanket and jacket and felt abit better lor.
K lah, going rest ler ^^v
I feel like dying, hope it is nothing serious.
And my house no fever and cough de medicine lah.
Pathetic right. :(
Want take also can't.
Heard that our class went com lab during CME.
So jealous:(
Take care dear.

knnbccb -'-

Bury in my Heart.

2009-07-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

Heyyo:D
Sneak and use computer awhile:X
Then now kena scolded till very "zzz"
Nvm.
Now I fucking angry with her.
Due to yesterday and now.
Yesterday de stuffs I don't wanna mention.
Make me cry. -'-
Damn dulan this few days zzz.
TODAY FORGET BRING POCKET MONEY LOR.
Then take height and weight lor during PE.
Sian, never grow taller.
But lost weight!:D
So happy lah, but my aim haven't reach.
Hehehe.
Then F&N cook pineapple rice lor.
I can't imagine that it will turn out nice.
LOL, my mum also say nice:D
Hahahahahaha, i put alot of raisins!
Damn sweet but I love it!
Then EL and Maths quite sian lah.
But EL cher praise me hardworking wor.
LOL! but I think I am not lor.
I am lazy can.
Then chem need present proj lor.
My group last so no need present today~
Today only 3 groups presented and my group is the last as draw lots.
Then after that never go maths extra lesson.
I go FD!
Danced with azhari.
Very fun lah, but ps need really touch zzz.
Sad, due to h1n1 this year no cultural expression-'-
So cher don't let us dance for waste so we going to youtube!
Hahahaha, now whole world can see. LOL.
But I want cultural expression:(
Hmm, was selected as one out of 8 best dancer.
I knew dear was sad as she never got selected and someone make her!
RAWR!!!!:@
Then went meet clique plus meifu.
Then went talk with dear.
Then home.
Then bathed.
Skipped dinner again!:X

Hypnotizing is Fun!

2009-07-12T19:33:00.006+08:00

I LOVE BEING HYPNOTIZED^^v

Changed blog song.

Sorry never update yesterday.

Yesterday also never really do anything lah.

Just do chemistry project, and watched K-ON at night.

Had tuition @ 7plus to 9plus.

I fear the dark can.

I think I know why I everytime night emotional ler!

Cuz at night I very scared and feel alone.

Then maybe ~.~

finally sort it out. LOL.

Then at near midnight me, my mum and my sis got ourselves all excited.

As my older sister had a new boyfriend.

Then we were looking at the pictures, giving comments etc.

Hah, if she is going to married, i going disiao her boyfriend at the door.

LOL. so excited!

So envy, her boyfriend very guai, tiongxim, and devoted!

Hahaha, jealous:(

Then woke up @ 1plus today.

Start with chemistry project.

Then do until 5plus I rest awhile.

Then go hypnotize!

Hehe, super relaxing yet creepy~.~

But right, after it finished,

Alot of people passed out or fell asleep.

LOL! I only feel super super tired.

But I seems to listen to all the commands lol.

I feel like a slave-.-"

Tomorrow maybe going to try simple ones on my friends.

LOL.

But after it I feel really very tired.

And I really can let go everything!

And forget everything!

Like just can go die liao. LOL.

Then after that i go to bath.

Then ate.

Gonna do my chemistry project now.

RUSH RUSH RUSH!

All I do lol.

Tomorrow got school.

In school want faster holiday.

Holidat want faster school.

So stupid!

DUMB JUNIOR VERY DUMB! HAHAHAHA.

Keeping Faith.

2009-07-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FRIDAY! UNLUCKY DAY:(

Woke up @ 6.25am.
Overslept. Zzz.
Rushing like mad.
Was abit late lah:X
But not later than jiali and ant:P
Jiali sick, get well soon!
Saw a black mirror when I walk to meet ant and carol.
I think that cause my stomachache today.
Then got funeral too-.-
I walk alone leh:(
Glad that we are not late for school.
Yst talk 2hrs on phone with dumb junior.
Sian, prepaid burst till cannot burst.
But still got credit lah.
Yst dinner never eat, today breakfast and recess never eat.
Zai hor, can be god. LOL.
Then today had lessons lor.
Then tired, keep went to toilet.
Stomach pain till cannot pain.
Then recess I slept.
EL also slept.
OMG, I am like a pig!
Okay, at least last two period goeg I never sleep hor.
I keep hug bag in class nowaday!
Nice to sleep with something to hug.
Then after school go find ant and carol.
Went ant house play.
Ordered pizzahut delivery.
I am so broke now X.x
But so full.
So skip dinner again!
LOL!
Watched a movie by super junior!
RYEOWOOK SO COOL!!!!
Then we were like going to form a rock band!
Carol's the electric bass.
Ant's the electric guitar.
Me? The drummer or keyboard.
Not sure yet.
But I would like be drummer lah.
But they say my keyboard better X.x
Drummer so cool can.
Then we gng to save up to buy our instruments!
Mine the most ex. one lor.
Win liao lor.
Then use the cane to be drum stick prac-.-"
Played don't say lazy.
Is band de, but I only play drum part.
Damn nice, so I put blog song!
Hahaha.
Yeah! Stayed @ her house till 6plus.
I stuck inside lift at my house's blk again lor-.-
And I had to climb up-.-
Then went home and bathed.
No tuition today.
And yeah, online and chatted.
And I think I'd depression and it is getting worser.
Zzzz, I seriously don't know what I doing or saying:(

Tearing apart.

2009-07-09T20:38:00.005+08:00

那年冬天, don't ask me why i can blog.
I also don't know why.
Okay lah, cuz the main computer is on.
Plus my sister on internet and
I had packed my bag.
So it won't hurt if I use awhile.
My hair now grow longer liao.
Quite happy.
Chatted 3hours on phone yst night.
Played scissors paper stone with legs durong recess today.
Nidda stretch till very far.
Pain:(
Then had lessons lor.
Then after school walk with ant to back gate then went off with tong, daniel and jiahao.
Then jiahao went home first while me, danial and tong went gekpoh mac eat.
Saw my sis they all, weilu, syaza, siti.
Sit tgt with tong, weilu, syaza, siti and daniel.
Ate mcnugget.
Lol, me and tong went daniel house to do chem.
Took taxi, daniel treat, LOL.
alvin's unable to make it due to he mc.
Find information and give to alvin.
Then me and tong went to disiao people.
Then we 3 chat, play, and see daniel dota-.-"
Then went off with tong.
Chatted along the way and took bus and train to JE with her
While I train to boonlay.
Reached home @ 6plus.
My ez-link card no credit
So i spent around $3 for travelling back.
So ex can.
Then blah blah blah lor.
Then hurt lah but ok nvm lah.
Keep smiling, not so happy.
Must learn.
Tmr nidda go school so sian.

DANIEL (L) BENNY!

First day of school.

2009-07-07T20:37:00.002+08:00

Able to use comp awhile as I need to send cher something.
Slept @ 12plus yesterday night.
Woke up @ 6plus.
Met ant and carol with yc to walk to schl.
Then went straight up to class as we need to take temp.
Then had lessons lor.
Then realised today lesson end very fast lah.
If everyday was like that that would be good.
Skipped recess and lunch.
Recess I slept.
Lol, 12hours like that never eat.
Damn zai lor.
Jiali, carol and ant waiting for me outside class.
Walked home with ant.
Then reach home @ 2plus.
Then sleep all the way till 6plus.
Woke up and felt lethargic.
Then bath and felt I totally had no strength as I never eat.
Then I took a stool and sit down and bath.
Lol, then finally dinner!
But I can't finish leh.
My mum say I over hungry ler.
Nvm, can diet.
Lol, then now head damn giddy and I feel as if I'm gng to die.
Well, gotta go alr!
Nidda pack bag and stuffs.
For those who ain't happy/enjoying today,
Cheer up!
And I must not let my emotion control me, I must learn to control my emotion.

happy youth day

2009-07-06T21:01:00.006+08:00

HAPPY YOUTH DAY!

WON'T BE BLOGGING UNLESS IT IS FRIDAY, SATURDAY OR SUNDAY.
SCHOOL REOPENING TOMORROW.
MUST REALLY STUDY ALR:(

trim my eyebrow today, rushed all my HBL and HA today.

Sorry clique:(

Forever

2009-07-05T23:55:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAO TAI LONG ZONG AKA LEE JIA LIN!

Woke up @ 12plus today.
Suppose to wake up @ 9am.
Wth, keep overslept this few days. Tsktsk.
Chiong dragonica with sam again.
Then ate breakfast(or should I call it lunch?)
Then continue playing and chat on phone.
Then switched to mic in msn.
Free, convenience, and no nagging! Tsktsk.
Then keep lag luhs.
Then finally gave up and just chatted.
Then off and bathed and ate.
Mum never cook, have the urge to cook instant noodles again.
But lazy, so never!
And my friends keep say not healthy!
Ate curry puff instead.
Don't know why keep only eat two meals each day only-.-"
Then on mic talk again.
Gng to play dragonica but I can't!
Cuz once I log in character stands there I can't move.
Totally lag.
It makes my whole com lag too.
Then chatted with jk kor and Esther lol.
And of cuz sam too. erm, some stuffs happened and blah blah blah.
Tmr nidda wake up @ 7am-.-"
And I not gonna sleep unless it is 2plus or 3.
And I go in room is confirm won't sleep yet first de loh.
Tmr can't oversleep ler-.-
Then 10am nidda meet ant and carol for homework and breakfast.
Then hope can rush finish bah:X
AND HAPPY YOUTH DAY!
School's gng start soon.
I suddenly have the urge to run away from school.
I suddenly don't feel like going to school!
Some sort feel like, some sort don't feel like.
anyway sorry clique I not able to accompany you guys tmr.
Hope you guys have fun.
And sorry ling about the capsules..
I feel that I am sorry irreponsible can.
And I felt so bad.
Lin's birthday and I can't made it:(
I felt that I really changed already.
And I don't like myself this way!
Awwwww.
Gng anime!

Swaying

2009-07-04T23:54:00.001+08:00

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CP PAPA IS THE EARTH MOST SACRIFICING, MOST CARING ONE LAH. HE SACRIFICE HIS SLEEP 2 YEARS IN THE CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE TO CHAT ON PHONE WITH ME TILL MORNING.(is he say wanna talk on phone?-.-) TO PAPA: "IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP, TWO LEGS TO WALK, TWO HUMAN TO REPRODUCE OKAY!" HE ASK ME WISH HIM KENA H1N1 AND HE WILL BE HAPPY. LOL. HE VERY BHB. LOL. HE ALSO SAY HIMSELF VERY CUTE. LOL. BIG ENOUGH MAH!?

Woke up @ 1020 today.
Suppose to meet keryn @ 9.45am but can't get up so change to 10.30am.
I was rushing like crazy as I was sort of overslept.
Met her @ around 1040
Suppose to go study one with ling and her.
But no time as we had to meet ping @ 1130.
Then went walk around Harris and Pop.
Dear bought some stationary.
Ping was late!
So ling, dear and me went eat lunch first.
LJS!
Then ping came and we walk around looking for her present.
Then went to buy lin's birthday present.
Bought quite a number or things like that.
Then went one and a half floor(Betcha ask, Eh?! WHAT ONE AND A HALF?)
Find out yourself!
We write, think for her presents.
Then wisl came to find ping.
With damn loads of stuffs!
Hahahahaha. Got one obscene stuff.
Then went to arcade.
Then went starbucks.
Then me and ping separate from dear and ling.
Me and ping took bus to gekpoh.
Then I went to find jy di, rs kor and yc while ping 'THE REST' in her blog.
LOL!
They in arcade playing maple and they asked me to play.
But after spending lin's present I'm so broke.
So rs kor and jy di treat me!:D
Then I create a new character in aquila.
Then junyuan give me mesos luhs.
I choing faster than my mei. XD
My mei used about 2 hours than choing till level 10
While I just used 1/2 hour.
LOL!
Then at first want buy bubbletea in theend never.
yc went 7eleven buy food to eat.
rs kor wait for her while me and jy di went to prime.
I bought chocolate collen while he bought chocolate collen and chocolate dip sticks.
Go find them back and yc bought bread.
Then went to chat with them at my house there's stairs.
Talk alot of stuffs again.
Then went home and reached home @ 7plus.
Then some stuffs and blah blah blah.
Then bathed and chatted with UzAir.
We create a company called theeeeeeeeee draggingggggggggg wordddddddddd companyyyyyyyyyy. powered by me and UzAir.
Lol, so weird luh.
One sec 3(me) and one sec 1(him).
It's about word dragging at the end lor in MSN.
We fine/charge people dragging word. XD
Then played dragonica with sam and talked on phone.
Then maybe now go do HBL.
Tomorrow nidda wake up @ 8plus in the morning to play.
Hope can bah, I try my best.
Hmmmm, I wonder, do I change for me or him.
I believe there will be someone who loves me as who I am now.
And accept the way I am.
Maybe sometimes not fated bah.
Hehehe. But I really over sensitive lah.
And I must believe people more.
This is for myself, not for anyone.
We can want the thing the way we want actually.
Is just how you see it and maintain it.
I don't need people who sort of throw people away when blahblahblah.
I said nothing!
And sometimes alot of people say like this, like his close friend etcs, but himself say is not like this.
And I sort of very confuse.
Sometime believing people could hurt people very much as well.
But doubt separates people too.
So what must we do-.-"
If 2012 world really end, what would you do now.
Heh, talk about this at stairs.
And how it ends.
HEY, DO YOU THINK I CAN SURVIVE WITHOUT LOVE/STEAD?
SO FAR 99% SAY I CAN'T. LOL.
1% ME VOTE LAH. LOL. LAUGH DIE LER.

Breathe Upon You.

2009-07-03T23:39:00.006+08:00

Woke up @ 6plus today.
Went to meet jy di, rs kor with yc downstairs.
I nearly can't get up as I slept quite late last night.
Reach bball court and saw joying there.
Then never really play lor.
My toe was injured zzz.
Run a few steps also pain.
Don't know how to run 2.4km.
Then upcoming week mr lim msg me say going train 10km ler.
I am so dead.
Then talked to rs kor and cheer him up!
Hope it really does and don't think too much like me!:(
I think he feel better at least bah.
Then some stuffs happened and blah blah blah.
Went home and prepare go JP.
Then in the end never go ler cuz some stuffs and blah blah blah.
LOL! then stayed at home do SS till around 2pm.
Played Dragonica with sam.
Quite fun lah the game.
Like maple like that.
In kaye I am an archer while in Elga I am a mage.
Wakakaka. Played with sam in Elga.
Their char cute lor.
Then play till around 6plus faster bath and meet keryn @ 6.30pm.
Then went to do some HW and bought bubble tea.
Then went tuition till 9plus.
Talk about alot of fun stuffs lah.
Then walk to gekpoh with keryn.
Saw some people? LOL.
Then reached home @ around 10plus.
Freaking scary walking home in the dark-.-"
Heng I got wear specs that makes it slightly better.
I realise I really don't know what I want.
Who I like no matter in friendship or what.
Don't know who to believe in.
Don't talk about sad stuffs lah!
But I rather change my bad stuffs than like this. Zzz.
OKAY MY HW ALOT UNDONE AND I AM GNG DEAD. :X

I drift apart my my friends alot when i am in relationship lor.. I should continue to be close to my friends and seek their advices to change for the better! I should learn my mistake ler, really learnt. Seeing other people tgt I felt weird. I missed you. I know you are hurt lah so I aint fighting or what ler I don't want to hurt anyone anymore:)

Helpless soul

2009-07-02T23:52:00.003+08:00

*This post is for 2july.

Yst night was worrying about something.
Very very zzzz.
Woke up @ around 1pm plus.
Some people disturb and made me wake up-.-
Very tiring!
Maybe cuz previous night never sleep at all.
Then slept @1am like that after doing HBL.
Then was kena drag out.
Chatted with yc, jy di, rs kor.
Then went to eat instant noodles, mash potatoes and gulp.
Keep eat instant noodles and i am going to become instant noodles.
So unhealthy!
Then play bball.
And see jy di and rs kor match with clement, and some other guys.
Playing basketball really lighten my mood!
Then chatted at staircase again.
Homed and online.
Made alot of friends nowadays.
All SJAB-.-
Zzzz.
Know kean chang, ruixin, wenxin, peizhen, hanyu, hanjie, jessie.
Don't know got left anyone out anot.
If got please tell me:D
This few days keep kena added inside the conversation with them.
It's fun thou:D
Alot of swiss de.
So I bluff hanjie I in swiss same class as ruixin at first.
Hehehe.
Chatted and talk to 2 people to make them better.
Indeed they did luh i think.
And feel not so jue wang about life.
So happy that I could be a good listening ear.
And a good friend to everyone and very caring (according to some-.-)
And i must really show people I am happy.
I don't want people to worry about me ler.
Seeing so much people sad, I don't want to add on.
I wanna be their listening ear and cheer them up!
And that makes me feel happy for them too:)
Maybe seeing the one you loves you will be happy too:)
I this few days keep not enough sleep.
Later still need wake up @ 6am plus to meet jy di, joying, rs kor with yc.
Then go bball and jp arcade?
Hehehe. later eat instant noodles again.
Zzzz.
Then after this still needto choing HBL.
I think i don't need sleep ler lah.
Heard that next year CNY falls on 14 Feb.
Rs kor bdae.
After shou fo deng kena beat up.
LOL!
I guess jy di will come to talk with us throughout the eve night again:D
Don't know will be on phone with cp papa again anot leh.
Ha, but I am still very tired to be hui cheang ler lah.
Don't feel like fighting or what alr.
Maybe think through.
Like seeing them happy you will happy too.
Sometimes I feels that I don't know what I want-.-"
I tried to change but I can't luh.
Trying hard again. Hope can bah.
Going to work hard for the exams!
No Cs and below!
And now got one person turn horny in msn.
Want keep webcam and ask me go horny with that person.
Zzzz. lame.
Then keep want show me things.
Say he only wear underwear etcs.
From bukit timah sec.
Zzzz. why 16 will become so horny.
Lame, not as if I gonna sex with him or show him anything.
I am not going to accept webcam zzz.
Hmm.. going to choing my HBL now!

BYE!

Not Over You.

2009-07-01T20:40:00.008+08:00

Never sleep at all last night.
Can't sleep. Play hp games throughout.
Managed to get out of bed @ 6plus am.
Changed and went down with yc to meet jy di, rs kor.
Then went to bball court.
Joying came afterward.
I and joying jog around the court.
Then all went to buy instant noodles and gulp for breakfast.
Then di send joying home while me, rs kor and yc chatted.
Then after that jy di join in the chat.
Then went play bball awhile.
Then went staircase chatted alot.
Then reached home around 2plus.
Crystal missed call me and I called her back.
Then she was sad abotu some stuffs and she jioed me out to jp.
She alr @ JP so meet her @ Control station.
Then went shop around.
At first want watch Ice Age 3. But in the end never.
Drank Starbuck's chocolate chip cream.
Bought a "LIFE SUCKS" badge.
Then played DDR, Scoop machine and sweet machine.
Then rest is about shopping!
I wanna buy a new bag leh:(
Then crystal mum give me a ride home.
Then that's all for today!
I AM HAPPY AND NOTHING HAPPEN LAH. :D
I gonna stop fighting for anything now. I tried something so embarrassed first time. I should just believe and listen. If not, I going to get hurt again. It's been too many times. Once it's over, it's over. All you all want me to do is to move on and forget and let go. I am tired of being myself.. I don't want to be myself anymore.. why am I like this? i listen to other people's problems and cheer them up, but I can't solve problems myself..I am really lost.
BYE!

One More Time

2009-06-30T19:48:00.012+08:00

Woke up @ 9plus.
As usual, overslept.
I slept as 4plus I guess.
Cried all night due to some stuffs.
Hope school reopen I wont overslept-.-"
I suppose to wake up @ around 7am today.
And go bball, but I am too tired to go.
Then almost never do anything today:X
Later I gng to do it:D
Bathed in the afternoon.
Then went audi with RS kor and YC.
Played couple dance 31 and CC4 and UBP!
UBP earns alot:P
I today total earns around 100k dens in UBP bah.
Hehehe.
Then went to play bball with RS kor, JY di, hong, YC.
Played awhile.
Saosao came after that.
Then Angela Qwek and her boyfriend too.
Then watch the boys play match.
Damn funny, really!
At least I laugh once today for that.
Then JY di send saosao home then RS, hong, YC and me play bullet.
Then went home and crap about stuffs along the way.
Reach home @ 7plus.
And bathed! Hmmm. I love bathing? Hehe.
It makes me feel refreshed and clean!
And ready for everything!
I've no appetite this few days.
Almost never really ate.
Maybe due to PMS and some stuffs.
Plus I lay bball means I exercise.
Good, can lose alot of weight.
I feel bloated thou.
Hmmmm, I today did something very ps.
But at least I tried, I fight for it.
Then I won't regret.
And have some hope than never:D

~~ILYIMYYOUTOO?:)~~

[/edited at 10.15]
I've completely lost, I thought I would have some hope. But it just crushed everything down. I am tired. I would have expect this and I tot i would be happy as i tried, but I am not. Nvm, if want to move on and let go, i don't wanna stop or what anymore. Im sick and tired alr.

Lost In Time

2009-06-29T21:13:00.006+08:00

Woke up @ 9plus today.
Suppose to wake up @ 7plus as I nidda do HBL.
But gladly, not by the time nid hand in.
So I've time to complete.
Then trained to shaw.
Ate lunch with HPY.
Went to watch Transfomer 2 with HPY.
So damn cold in the cinema.
I don't understand what is the story about.
I don't even know who is who.
And who is good and who is bad.
But quite nice and fun:)
Then trained back and bused to gekpoh.
Bad experience in train:(
Sort of drizzling, then I went to collect my specs.
Then bought a black head band.
Then home and it started to rain.
It was dark and I'm scared I admit.
Was all drenched.
Reached home @ around 7plus and went to bath.
Then maybe later going play audi.
Should I go basketball tomorrow 7.30am?

Alot of stuffs went through my mind. Sometimes I just hope you could be with me just awhile more. I'm afraid being alone, and being in the dark. I thought we can be more than what we are now. It makes a difference. I tried to convince myself that you're gone. But today you really make me happy. You make me don't know what status we are now. You make me luv you so much and you went off.

Suffocating

2009-06-28T21:43:00.001+08:00

[/edited]

Woke up @ 11plus as school's staff called me.
They told me school will only reopen on 7july as there are one cher kena H1N1.
There will be home based assignment given.
Nidda wake up early still.
Tired, as I slept quite late yst night,
I crawl out of bed and went to use computer.
I played till around 3plus.
At first going to do specs with my sis, but changed to with my mum.
And changed from JP to gekpoh.
Will be collecting it tomorrow night.
Then dabao food home for dinner.
Then went basketball with Di, RS Kor, Ying sister, YC and Honghong!
Played Bullet at first.
Then matches
The ring seems to have evil aura-.-"
Kena black magic? after having net.
All of us, except RS kor and Ying, cannot shoot in-.-"
Saw Ryn dear!
Then after that I can ler, played ABC.
At first went very far even till opposite ler.
In the end hit the net = airball nidda go back home!
Zzz.
Then played bullet, seems bad at first,
but after that okay ler.
Then saw hongqiang and yuzhe.
Talked about some stuffs.
Then went to void deck to chat awhile.
Then home @ around 6plus going 7.
Then on computer awhile.
Then I realise I am making difficulties for everyone as I don't have opinion/don't make decision.
Then someone seems very fierce.
I know he's doing it for my good..
But I just can't decide stuffs..
That's my nature!
Had a hard time deciding something..
I cried, Zzz.
Cuz I felt pressurised, felt scolded at..
Felt alone, I could never be a leader..
My heart's so heavy, I can't breathe..
Then finally decided, but I know it is not a good choice..
Cuz I don't have "zhu jian" and everyone who knows me well knows!
But maybe they are pissed off and never tell me about it..
Just don't wanna hurt me..
Then glad have this someone who pinpoint me..
Thanks.. I try to change...

Feeling Empty

2009-06-27T22:18:00.011+08:00

THE LIFT STUCK AGAIN LIKE HOW IT STUCK YESTERDAY, WHEN I AM INSIDE.

Woke up @ 11plus. Suppose to wake up @ 10plus. As usual, can't get up. At first gng to make specs @ very last min. But change to tmr as my older sister tdy is busy. So changed till tmr then make. Then changed and head to GP to buy my top-up card for my hp. Then went to meet ling and fifi to do homework. But it was 2plus when I reached. Then do until 3plus which only enable me to finish around 7 qns. Still got alot undone.Then ling wanna eat so we went to JP's LJS to eat while fifi go meet his friend. Ling's words sometimes did impact me somhow. Then went to Popular and Harris to hunt for books. Ling bought 2 books and some stationary. Then I'd been tolerating that I had stomachache so long till I CMI so I rush to the washroom first when ling's queueing. Meet ling @ banquet after that. Realise I having PMS-.-" Then bought my dinner and headed home. Lift stucked again. Had a nice great and long bath. Then now having alot and very painful cramps and this is killing me. I'm so lazy to take the medicine for it. I nidda eat medicine as I have serious cramps. Then my house have the aircon on and I had wind-dampness so now my whole leg is suffering now.

Wind-dampness
Wind-dampness is a pathogenic factor formed by a combination of wind and dampness evils; it usually causes arthralgia, myalgia numbness, etc.

I am so going to die.

Sometimes I really hope time will rewind and let me try one more time. But I realised I should look ahead and yearns and improve for another chance instead. I'm working hard for one! I don't want more to worry about me anymore. I will be happy and smiling even I am not happy! Ling knows what I meant:D

Not gonna sleep early again, like the past few days.
IMY.

Trying.

2009-06-26T23:37:00.012+08:00

Slept @ 2plus yst night. Suppose to wake up @ 9plus. But woke up at 10 instead. Too tired. Then rush to meet Tong2, Danial and Alvin @ lib. Was late for about 10mins. But no one was there after I waited so long-.-" I went in JP and called Alvin to ask if it was today or tomorrow. He said Tomorrow at first, scare me. In the end is today luh, scare me. Then saw Tong2 first, she reached @ 11plus. Alvin came after that. Then went walk around. Then went in Mac chat till 11plus going 12 like that Daniel then come-.- Ate in Mac, got green glass. Then saw ling and ping! SAD, had to miss the birthday party for ping! WTH:( SURE VERY FUN DE LOR!!:( Then asked alot of people to lend us laptop. We forget to bring-.-" Then the Samuel Siya, lazy dao cannot lazy. Zzz. In the end never lend, went Alvin's house. We were playing DJ Max all the way to his house. Then reached his house ended up all not doing. Started to say play poker:X In between Hongqiang and Eric(?) and Karhow came. Played till 4plus like that. Win some money! $.$ OF CUZ LAH, HUI CHEANG LEH. Hohoho-.-" Then 4plus we went down to 903? or 907's Hawker Centre eat. Plan to do Chem online-.-" Karhow treat us! Eric went home. All ate Chicken rice add on Charsiew. Is nice de okay! Despite yesterday night and today morning never eat, I can't eat finish the rice:X Everyone finish it except me, Wth. Then I made into Bunny with the rice. VERY NICE DE OKAY, SAD NEVER TAKE PHOTO ONLY! OF CUZ LAH, F&N ONE OKAY! Wakakaka! Then went home obviously, as I had tuition. Bathed and met Ryn dear @ 7. Then walk around chat around and had maths tuition. Then homed.(WALKING BACK HOME IS DAMN SCARY FROM THERE TO MY HOUSE-.-" DAMN DARK DE LUHS!!)

MY BLOG SONG VERY NICE AND MEANINGFUL!!

I am now trying hard ler, trying to be, trying to change.
Believe in myself, believe in others, not to doubt others, not to drag people down, not to invade people privacy, not to keep bugging someone to another when I know It had be for me more, have confidence, have faith in others, be positive and cheerful, cannot say this feel that, and be real happy. I am trying.. for everyone, for someone, and for myself:) For those who I dragged down, unhappy about, doubting with, can't stand me anymore, I'm sorry.

To someone who might be angry as I gambled today, I'm sorry.

2009-06-25T19:38:00.009+08:00

Made all draft.

Sorry for closing this blog this few days.
I will keep this blog open again.
But when school reopen I will not update so often.
Sorry for those friends who care about me.
I will cheer up soon.
I should change, since what you all meant was I should change.
If not the same stuffs will happen again. All my fault to this.
And I know it was all my fault.
If not this won't happen.
:)

nothing more to say, bye.

2009-06-23T19:54:00.007+08:00

Tired of trying,
Sick of crying,
Yeah I'm smiling,
but inside I'm dying.

But it only hurts when you start
pretending it doesn't..

I feel so pink!

2009-06-22T21:26:00.001+08:00

PHOTOS LATER! :D

Suppose to wake up @ 8plus.
But I'm too tired cuz I barely slept yesterday night.
I drag myself up @ about 9.20am.
Changed and packed and went down to buy tidbits from today's trip.
I bought Potato Chips and Twisties.
Then rush for bus as I was late and meet clique @ 10plus. (suppose @ 10am)
Then trained to Joo Koon then back to Boon lay.
Meet Ping @ Lakeside inside the train.
Dear can't come. Aww:(
Then trained to Vivo and bought ticket for SENTOSA!
Then monorail to beach station and took tram to Siloso beach!
Then we put our stuffs down and start playing with the sand awhile.
Then went into the water!
Play and talk stuffs.
Then ate lunch @ around 1plus.
Ping bought some sandwiches and bread and Ling bought chocolate!
Laotailongzong anything also nvr bring. Lols!
Then Ping give us souvenir.
A small character flute and a star shape lolly!
Thanks Ping!
Then went to bath and changed.
I feel so pink man.
Slippers pink, shirt pink, bag pink, handphone strip pink, comb pink, towel pink, felt bag for putting clothes pink, under pink. almost everything pink! Even the shirt I am wearing now! But I am not so crazy over pink. Don't know why so pink today.
At first they want to watch Hannah Montana but Ling's mum don't let cuz of the H1N1 thing.
Cuz enclosed area ya.
Then take tram then monorail to Imbiah station.
Take alot of photos there and had alot of fun.
Then walk walk walk we found ourselves back @ beach station.
So take monorail back to sentosa station.
Then went to Vivo shop.
Then we separate cuz ling wanna go find Kinder Surprise and laotailongzong want to go buy clothes.
Ping follow laotailongzong while I follow ling.
After searching up and down we finally found it @ the cocoa tree.
So long never see it already luhs!
So we bought 3 eggs one.
Which cost ard $8!
Then meet up @ LJS and ate some side dishes and drinks.
Then shop around Vivo.
Went in FOREVER 21, TOPMAN etcs.
Then trained back and bused home.
Then bathed and change and I realised my lips got one sore!
Should be cuz of saltwater? My face also got red pimples? Aww:(
Maybe tomorrow go do homework with clique.

IMYPIGPIGPIGPIGPIG:(

HAPPY 22ND SISTERS!
We have been through for about 2years and 7 months alr! We had been through alot of ups and downs and our friendship remains! Though our classes are different, but our friendship will stay right. I know alot of stuffs had been drifting us apart in the past and I hope it doesn't affect much in our friendship! We did had fun alot of times. Though all meeting up is like really very difficult for the whole clique, but I hope our friendship last! Luv u sisters! Cheers!

Wondering

2009-06-21T21:28:00.003+08:00

WHY I KEEP SEEING THINGS THAT I DON'T WANT TO SEE?

(*p/s: I am not jealous or anything!)

&&&!

MY MUM LET ME GO SENTOSA!!:D

Tendency

2009-06-21T20:49:00.010+08:00

Woke up @ 10.30pm today.
Meet pig @ around 11plus
Then trained to Orchard.
Pig said he don't want to care me anymore cuz I petty. (Am I?)
Maybe I do get angry/jealous over certain small stuffs.
And I was fucking angry about it cuz he never accept me this way!
Have lunch @ Shaw centre.
Ate Mac.
Then walked to Heeren.
So bored there:/
Then walk aimlessly.
Then walk till Orchard Points OG.
Went in shop around.
Then pig told me something I was ficking jealous/angry?
But I say I don't
Like duh! Imma a girl leh.
Then walk aimlessly again.
And Plaza Sing pop out-.-
Then went in Plaza Sing.
OMG, is fun de luhs.
Got cosplay, and we went in arcade.
Then walk around in there aimlessly.

I wanted four things today:

A small toy camera($1)
a long big pig from arcade scoopz machine
a washable toy bear[can draw using washable marker provided ($24.90)]
a free balloon from takashimaya(can fly/float, stay upright to the sky one).

All never get dao. Sad.
Tomorrow my clique's going Sentosa!
Don't dare to ask my mum about it.
I scared can't.
Then the main com sot sot diao.
I using my sis's com, later she come back don't let me use le.
Then my lappy still haven't come back.
Then pig's phone kena ban.
WHY I SO SUAY!!!
I am so sad/angry/pissed/scared/jealous over so much stuffs nowadays!
WHY!!! AH!!!!
Okay, gonna stop my whining here!

Today don't know why pig so weird online in MSN.
It is me? Or..?

Adolescent Heart

2009-06-20T21:02:00.004+08:00

Cried yesterday night due to my sister fighting with me for the charger.
I know it's kind of stupid, but I need the charger somehow.
And she just keep refuse to give me and i shout and then cry.
Don't know why so stupid.
And no one was there for me.
Woke up @ 8plus today.
Suppose to wake up @ 7plus but I just can't get up:X
Then prepare and changed and went down with my sis to meet Jieying.
Then we bused to Jurong East Swimming Complex.
Then swim lap pool, play wave pool, play yellow slide etc.
I bang my head to the slide as it is too fast.
Then it is seriously very painful, till even now when I pressed my head that part.
It was a loud bang, Jieying and my sis could heard it. Awww.
Then when play Wave pool nearly drown-.-
Then bathed @ 11 like that and went home and reach at ard 12plus.
Then prepare for badminton tournament and rushed out.
Nearly kena Motorcycle bang-.-
Then walked to school and saw Yokeleng.
She's waiting for Xinlei. Then I accompany her awhile.
Then Xinlei never came at 12.55pm, so we rush to the gate and meet the rest.
Listening music all the way in the bus.
Then Xinlei run out from nowhere and board the bus.
She was late.
Reach arena @ 1plus and match start @ 2.
Our school lost and we only need to play 1st singles, 1st doubles, 2nd singles.
As if we lost that 3, we don't even need to play on for the 2nd doubles and 3rd singles.
I didn't play as we had 8 people and I was sort of tired after swimming and Yokeleng choose Xinlei as her doubles partner so I don't need to play.
Then be line judge for one game between Crescent Girls and Commonwealth.
Crescent Girls won, cheers!
Then board back the bus @ around 3plus and reach back school @ around 3plus going 4.
Then went to Fico sports hub and ate one Waffle Stick and Oreo Spin as drink.
Xinlei ate fried sweet potatoes and Oreo Spin while Yokeleng only drink Oreo Spin.
Then Yokeleng left and Left me and Xinlei.
We gossiped till around 4plus then I went to find pig while Xinlei went home.
I waited for pig for around 1hr plus. He reached at around 4plus going 5.
Fortunately got Xinlei and Yokeleng or I gonna wait like crazy.
Then chatted with him awhile and cried again.
Don't want to mention why.
Homed @ 7pm and bathed.
Ate Takoyaki for dinner!

Do I look like a substitute? Do I have a substitution face? Or just a back up? Why you all one by one does that to me? like You, if she got come, then you paired with her, then if she didn't, You paired with me, what do you treat me as? Got her jiu don't want me? Our friendship so weak? Try it man. Try to be in my shoe. If one day I paired up with her, how would You feel? we are partners since so long. Then You, didn't tell me your feelings from the start, and lied about it. Still want me to accept the fact that You like her, I know I'm sort of exaggerate about it. But how would You accept if it was me. I had given You time to think, and You don't want to think as You said, You said no matter how hard You think, even You don't like her anymore, I will still mention about her, maybe that's true, cuz that's me! and You need to accept the way I'm. And cuz of that You don't even want to think. Though sometimes I playing and teasing, but I really hope You is really tiongxim one. But treat me like a bitch. Then You will just stick to your own will, even also can't change just for me, cuz I ain't special! From You who said it right? Then You, treat me like what? Said You treat me as your friend, at my back backstab me, what kind of friend are You? Like him, fight for him, not just trying just to break people and make bad impression about me to your friends. And You, Only when you need me then You with me, so-called be friends with me, what kind of friends are You? Why everyone like to treat me as 2nd choice? Or, just like substitution or backup? Do I look so cheap? Do I look so bitch?

War of Witches were right, "nobody understands me." That's how we (teenagers) sees it. And after you grow up, when you see another child say "nobody understands me." , Tell them, I was once your age too. <:

Kiss Goodbye

2009-06-19T22:01:00.007+08:00

Woke up @ 11plus today.
Went to meet Keryn dear at bus-stop @ 12plus.
Then started to drizzle abit so I decide if we could have our lunch @ JP.
At first plan to eat LJS, but ate KFC instead as LJS no seats available.
Then saw pig there~
Then head to library to do our homework.
I did some, but all is do halfway. Hehe.
Then we were then told by the librarian that:

LIBRARY COULD NOT BE USE TO STUDY OR DOING HOMEWORK ANYMORE!

awww. they don't allow it anymore, only reading books from there.
Then walked back to find Junyuan, Rongsheng, Junhong and my sis.
Planned to play bball, but no court.
Then went to chat till around 6plus and went back.
Bathed and went to meet Keryn dear again @ 7.
Then planned to do tuition homework, but didn't in the end.
Head to Pasar Malam @ near gekpoh to walk around awhile.
Then head to Gwen's house for tuition.
Complete our maths properties of circle worksheet and we are done with the chapter (after so long-.-)
Then start briefly with trigonometry.
Then ended @ around 9.30 and headed home.
So dark and it's freaking scary that Keryn dear had to accmpany me till opposite bus-stop.
We kept thinking what hairstyle we want to cut throughout the whole day!
Totally can't concentrate on other stuffs and decide what we want to cut.
Hehe, tomorrow going swimming and nidda meet @ 8.30am in the morning!
Then need to reach school @ around 1 for WeeKimWee badminton tournament.
Safra Bay Run(Army Half Marathon) 10km's coming up soon too!(I think @ Aug.)
Must wake up damn early in the morning to run one.
I think 4plus or 5plus am nidda meet alr.
Hope I could complete it and get an medal.
Hoho, my name's gonna announced in the assembly for the medal after completing the next few days/weeks! Be alert!
So many stuffs and my homework still done halfway.
So rush!

Vivocity~

2009-06-19T03:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
Time now is 3:45am..
Here to help her update blog.
and i'm pig!(:
Hoho!

Okay, yesterday pangseh her at night..
Sorry.. not as if i want to.. :(

Well, i promised to help her update blog!

Yesterday went vivocity with her.
Took bus 30 to there.
She very sad.. gah! my fault!!
Then we had our lunch at Long John Silver.
Then walked around, shopped and slacked.
After that, went to Harbourfront Centre.
Bought Chocolate milkshake.
Then took bus 30 back to Jp.
And off she went home.

bye!!!

Heart Matters

2009-06-18T20:31:00.005+08:00

Woke up at around 11am today.
Super tired luhs.
Then went to meet pig @ JPCS around 12plus.
Cuz I walked there!
W-A-L-K leh. Haha.
Then went to Vivocity to have our lunch.
Zzz, we alr very hungry still took bus 30 which need around 1hr 30mins to reach.
Ate Long John Sliver's again.
I add on a popcorn chicken, cuz I never try before there.
Nice luhs, but hor, only a few pieces alr cuz $2 for add on!
Awwww. Then walk around there.
Walk till around 5 like that then went to take bus 30.
At first need to stand cuz no seats, but after not long got le luhs.
I sleep all the way, clever hor?;P
Then bused home.
Tomorrow maybe going to do homework.
Hoho, act guai;P

Had been quarreling for quite sometime over certain stuffs.

2009-06-18T00:20:00.001+08:00

PIG IS HERE!~
Help her update blog~~
HAHA!~

Sigh, she sad nowadays cuz of me..
Gah.. i feel so bad><
Sorry!!

Today went out with her to Orchard!
She wear very nice luh, like going to winter those kind!
HAHA~

Lol, then had our lunch at KFC..
Then went to watch movie 'Hannah Montana'.
Lala~
So funny, nice and interesting!
Hahas, i don't know whether she's happy or not..
Sorry!

Ok, then after finish watching, we took mrt and went home..
Gah~ So bored without her luh!
Sigh, she going to ps me tomorrow~
=(
Whatever it is, never mind(:

But never mind luh!
I know she will miss me!xD
Hahaha, i so thick skin~
Aww~~
HAHA. Don't jealous luh peeps!~
HehexD

Ok luh, time for pig to leave.

Good BYE!

Outing with clique

2009-06-16T12:10:00.004+08:00

Went out yesterday with Ling and Jialin.
Dear and Ping never come due to some reason.
Then went to eat lunch at Long John Sliver.
Then went to Bugis Junction and Bugis Street to shop ard.
Jialin wanted a shirt, but the shop keeper aint there.
Then head to orchard and shop around Isetan.
We three bought a tank top from FOREVER 21!
(check out their website @ http://www.forever21.com/)
I light green, ling dark green, jialin dark blue.
Then MNG etcs, ard the mall.
I nidda get a MNG tank top too! (clique's stuff)
*sniffs* going broke.
Then head to Tangs and in between that we bought Starbucks Caramel coffee!
Damn nice! Haha, then never really shop in there.
Then at first want to head to Wisma Atria or Far East.
But in the end go back to Jurong Point.
Then Jialin meet up her mum and I accompany ling to buy her sister's and her dinner.
Homed and yeah. Online till around 10 and chatted on phone.
Don't wish to mention the details or what.
Then my mum and dad at first going Malaysia today till tomorrow or something.
But they changed to tomorrow. *sniffs*
And I'm sick!:(
Not going Wee Kim Wee badminton tournament today.
Sad! feel like going but sick:(
Then gonna stuff myself at home today bah.
Tomorrow also, alone.

Upload pictures next time!:)

Once I did this puzzle, I spent alot of my days and times to complete it. Yet I found one piece missing. I look at the puzzle and I just keep looking at the missing part, and I got so angry that I throw the whole puzzle away. And the next day, I found the missing piece, but the whole puzzle is already gone.

Town

2009-06-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

Suppose to meet pig at 9am, but I woke up at 9am.
Lol, reached at 9.45am instead, sorry!
Yst night slept at 12am plus then don't know why so tired.
Anyway then we ate big breakfast! :D
Then trained to somerset and then went cineleisure.
Watched Ghost of the Girlfriend Past.
Not bad luhs, quite funny.
Then went to Far East.
At first want go new one, end up going into a old one.
Then in the end found the new one.
Ate TAKOYAKI!:D hehehe.
Then walked around orchard then bused home.
We waited for 2 bus before we went up to the bus.
Cuz too crowded no place sit, haha.
Then chatted awhile then home and bathed.
Then maybe later play maple or watch Shugo Chara! hehehe.

Moon Lover

2009-06-12T20:55:00.005+08:00

Today have friendly match with CCK.
Um, nearly won, but still lost.
The score damn near, but nvm.
At least I'd fun and I tried my best.
Today the pig come back lers.
He meet me outside the school after the match.
Hmmm, then chatted with him.
It seems like I've so long never see him ler.
Although it is just 3 days.
Then homed and bath.
This next few days gonna be quite occupied.
Hehehe.
Then felt quite hurted after knowing certain stuffs.
And I'll prove it wrong too okay!
Cheer up Hui Cheang!
Gambateh!

Yesterday night moon is so big and bright that it shines into my eyes painfully. And it make me realise a fact, the Earth is rotating. I know that it is a common sense. But yeah, only yesterday night I did really realise it. The moon was there at first, then there and then there. For a instance the whole room seems slanted. It's like how the earth is position and moved. As a human, we don't feel the Earth is rotating at all. But yesterday night, I swear I almost feel it was moving! It suddenly make me thought of our lives. We can be moving on slowing that we don't even notice it till after a long period, and then you realise. But no matter what, it still continue to move on and shine brightly. I think we must learn the moon, move on and be happy no matter what happen, life still has go on. The moon appear and night slackers will be happy, and after long day of work, worker finally could end their jobs and go home to their home to their families. And lovers a place to enjoy with.

The missing voices

2009-06-11T19:08:00.003+08:00

It's been quite sometime since I last blogged.
Maybe I'm quite sick of blogging:/
I've been playing maple this few days to make my time fly faster.
Today I'd friendly match @ Cresent Girls Sec.
Double with Yoke Leng.
Lost, but still okay.
At least it's better than yesterday match.
Totally no mood for it luh, but I'm motivated to do my best after this few matches.
I don't wanna lose all the way.
Um. That pig's at Sarawak.
Hope he's enjoying.
He's coming back on Fri.
Hoho, I'll stuffing myself with anime, maple etcs this few days.
Tmr I have friendly match with CCK sec too. Hope I'll do btr.
Awwwww. Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow!

I luv single. Why I lousy means I can't be single? You never know if I never try. I know I slacked alot in the past, plus in the matches of double I've lost, I have learnt my mistake, hope next year's I could be single. I really can't do in doubles, I know you all will think, since double also si lousy, how to be singles, they are so much proer than double. But I hope I will have the chance, for the singles next time>:@

i love you, dear<333

2009-06-08T13:40:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Pig is here to help her update, once again!(:

Okay, pig is going to malaysia tomorrow..
From 9 to 12june.
Oh gosh.. i know she will miss me a lot..
and i will miss her a lot too..

Anyway, don't slit okay?
Promise me you are fine when i'm back.
Wait for me!~
Pig will be back soon der(:
Cheer up!
iLOVEyou!<333
iMISSyou!<333

Bye, signing off ler!
PIG!~~~

Happy 13th Birthday, YC

2009-06-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

HEY!
Pig is here to help her update~~
She went out i suppose.
Went to celebrate her sister birthday with her family.
Wish her sister, YC, happy birthday!

Ok, today went out with this pig.
Went to town, but not really finish everything.
I know it's kind of bored to walk with me.
Sorry..
Hope you'd enjoy..
and don't sad anymore!
Cheer up dear~~
Pig is always here for you no matter what(:

BYEBYE.
Hope she enjoyed herself today..
be it with me(this pig) or with her families(Celebrating YC's bday)

2009-06-05T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hello. Pig is here to help her update.
She seems to be lazy to update her blog,
so she asked me to help her.

She has been playing maple for this whole week.
Hope she was having fun.

Alright, i do not know what to update already.
Well, just wish she was happy.
and not SAD!
Cheer up!

Tomorrow is her sister birthday!
Wish her sister happy birthday in advance!

Bye people<3

2009-05-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流.

Monsters VS Aliens in 3D version

2009-05-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!
Pig is here to help her blog!<333
HAHA!

She lazy to update luh, but nvm! Got me~~ HAHA

Okay, today she wear very nice!
She going out with me to watch movie at Vivocity.
Watch the Monsters VS Aliens in 3D version!
VERY NICE!! HAHA.
GOT A LOT OF LAME FUNNY PARTS AND ENTERTAINING PARTS!
HAHA!!
She also sick, but not worse than me.
Or should i say, i don't know her condition..
Nvm! Takecare and get well soon okay?!

Ok, signing off le!
BYEBYE!~
Don't MISS me! HAHAS
PIG~~~

MYE 2009 Overall results~

2009-05-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hellos!! Pig is here again~
Help her post secretly~ Chey~ joking:D

Ok, she very sad nowadays..
Firstly, mainly due to her results for mye overall..
especially her english.
Sigh, ask her if you want to know what happened.
She very clever one, so don't ever underestimate her!
She clever than me luh.. she got more marks than me and more percentage..><
Gah..i so no face~~ T.T
Never mind~~

Ok bye readers~~

Cheer up! ily and imy<333

Improvement in MYE!~

2009-05-26T19:40:00.001+08:00

Hello!!!
PIG IS HERE TO HELP HER POST!
HAHAHA!

She seems to be sad nowadays.
I feel so bad><>< *Guilty!!!!*
HAHA, CHEER UP!!!! :D
Ok la, she do not do well for her MYE,
but she got improve! :D
She scored higher than pig!><

BYEBYE!!!
Signing off, Zhu!~

See you!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEREMY!

Mirror mirror, no one can stop the mirror!

2009-05-24T20:35:00.001+08:00

HELLO!~
Pig is here to help her update this blog!
HAHAHAHAHA!

Today, she went to meet me!
Haha, she was tired and sleepy.
She told me she never sleep yesterday night.
It was all my faults!! I hurt her leh!!! Sigh, sorry people..
Ok, then we went to chat chat chat chat chat and slack :D
Hahas, then etc..
Then she went home after that, around 6pm. :D

GOSH! There's 2.4km run tomorrow! She don't want to run! HAHAHA.
Well, good luck and all the best to everyone, and YOU! <333

She is 15years and 2months old today!
2403 to 2405, HAHAHA~

Good bye~ Pig's gone!!
Signing off,
Zhu~

HAHAHA

2009-05-23T21:41:00.001+08:00

It's a long long journey
Till I know whera I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you. to you

update

2009-05-19T15:52:00.004+08:00

Sorry long time never update. Midyear exams are still going on. Left F&N paper on thurs. HOHO, tomorrow's a holiday. Cuz I nvr take any of the subjects of tmr's papers. Today elective geog paper still okay. Hope I could score well. I wanna pass my humanties!:) Hope MYE faster end. I gonna die already. This few days alot of things uh. Quarreling, drifting apart etcs. Hope everything could get better after Midyear:) William is a da hao ren, he bring to shengsiong. Bored, nothing to do and I'm freaking hungry now! Hope faster dinner time! and I'll eat like a dinosaur:) Tmr need to study F&N leh. Awwww. Or maybe going out. Oh ya, I want to buy alot of make up. Hahaha.

MYE

2009-05-16T18:32:00.004+08:00

Slack whole day at home. Played computer. Online till around 5plus went out to buy dinner. Bought KFC. Nearly fainted. Cuz I suddenly feel giddy, head very pain and my sister says my face turn white. My vision's very blur and I can't really see anything. Thank goodness my sister hurry up go buy water and gimme drink. And thank goodness that's no long queue. Homed and Ate. Changed song. Add and edit some songs. Gonna play audi tonight maybe. Nvr study with carol. No mood. Change to tomorrow I suppose. Gonna bath soon. Bye.